Death is normal isnt it?

death I don’t fear life is a pain ive dragged on too long death I think I almost embrace it like its not something to be scared of I just wanna wrap my arms around it cause its a part of life I wouldn’t be missed so why not sped up the process and help death realize its dream to just kill me cause if it doesn’t I will kill myself like whats the point if u have no one every walks out of your life at the time u need it the most im tired of all the pain im afflicted by it hurts to walk around and see certain people or places knowing how much they meant at one time knowing now they mean nothing. Oh how I long to just shoot my veins with a lethal injection that would solve all my problems forever I wouldn’t have to walk so broken and lost in this world that’s cruel so cruel I cant even be who I am ik im weird maybe even crazy but all ive ever wanted is love and im not worthy im just figuring this out right now me and love aren’t best friends we more of worst enemies death is my best friend we talk all the time as I sit here with a razor we talk about how much easier it is when death finally wins how as I bleed its nit me being weak its a cry for help yet help comes and I push it away everytime and I think death might call my name again tonight and I think this time I might finally give in and cut the other way cause itll stop people from ever saying anything about me again its definitely better and quicker without suffering one more time if I have to see you again ill go crazy you stole what life I had left