Hey, hi, hello. This is my first time using this website. I’m really glad I found It. Well I’m Sam, short for Samantha.
I just got into an awful argument with a boyfriend that I love oh so much. He put me down. We both have gone through the same thing. He however, expects me to become as strong as he is. I’m not, and it’s hard. I’m really weak and a coward. I feel like if I died it would make him happy. I fee like it would make everyone happy. I don’t want to go on knowing one day he thought I was perfect to having the next day him calling me and bringing me down. Some say I should leave him. How am I supposed to? I’m scared. I feel like I’ll be alone. He expects me to be like him. What do I do? I made a promise that is difficult for me. I put too much in my hands for someone who doesn’t care about. Even if they say they do, it’s all a LIE. I’ve heard it many times before. This is how I lost a past friend. I just make my family mad with my sadness. It’s all too much for me. My past is killing me. My knees are becoming weaker. I’m going to fall over from the excessive weight on shoulders. I hope that day comes soon, the day I just….snap.
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Hey there, Sam.
Let me start by saying that having someone force feed you their “ideals” or “beliefs” is never going to work, and your boyfriend needs to realise that quick. The best way to adjust to a different set of values or qualities is over a period of time with assistance all the way through, not by some next level sorcery that’s supposed to work overnight.
I’m not sure what you should do about him, but my advice is that if you can no longer carry the weight, either ask him to “give you a hand” carrying it, or lose the load altogether ie break up with him. If he’s worth his salt, he should by all means help you carry the load.
Really, I’m not sure what else I can say to you, other tHan that I’m here to help if you need it and that I wish you the best.
Thank you for sharing.
Hi Sam, I’m Lexus. I know how you feel all of the past coming down on you filling you with pain so deep you can’t imagine even waking up in the morning. If you fall asleep at all the night before. It’s horrible. For me its thoughts about my past the weigh me down everyday. I wake up and feel like maybe it’ll be better. But sometimes that works and sometimes it doesn’t. I understand. And I know your struggling. Hell I’m struggling too. But we’ve got to fight with ourselves no matter how weak we are to try and stay alive. At least I think that’s what we’re supposed to do. I know it hurts. I feel your pain.