I’ve ran out of patience with trying to figure out my “life purpose”
I may be in a better emotional state than I was in late 2011 and the first half of 2012, yet that isn’t enough to make me value life
when I look back, life hasn’t been very enjoyable since mid 2010 and it’s time to put an end to this farce
my only regret: among all the people who say (believe) they care about me, not one would be willing to help me in any way to leave this prison
DON’T BE FOOLED: people value their feelings more then they value your well-being … yet they expect you to hang in there (mostly for their feelings’ sake) regardless of how shitty, fed up and/or hopeless you may feel .. they tell you things get better, and they can, but their end goal is to talk you into sparing their feelings by staying alive
such is the BEAUTY of human nature !
Farewell, fellow lost souls .. I can only hope there will be no interference this time
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Well people observe the world through their feelings because how else? If they feel bad because you die, it means that they care. It may be due to their own feelings but how can they sense you if not through their own feelings?
“If they feel bad because you die, it means that they care.”
I think they feel bad because they’re aware your death would create a hole in their lives and they aren’t willing to go through the process of refilling it .. if this is what people refer to as caring about someone, I’d rather have not them care
do you mind explaining to me what caring about someone means in your reality ?
and at this pont, I’d be a lot more grateful towards someone who doesn’t care for me yet gets me out of here (a doctor, a killer, whatever) than someone who cares about me and expects me to “hang in there”
my question: why do people expect you to value their feelings over yours ?
Like, whomever reds this is going to care about your feelings..? Hmn. deus ex machina. I hope you will feel better soon… Mostly because I may never happen to read another post from you, if I remember yor handle. Like the song goes, “I hope someday you’ll get the chance to live like you were dying.”
Peace.
*reads