I am new here. I have read about your feelings and I decided to share mines with you.
Sorry, about my English… I am trying to improve, so any mistake that you find out, feel free to correct me – that is how I learn, isn’t it?
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// March 19th //
Forget all about the motivational sentences. Forget them for your own good, because when the time comes to you, you mustn’t fail. Why? Clear as water. You can’t flop once again. You don’t have strong motives for that. Your life is so simple and perfect. You have everything you need. Even when you don’t know who you are, your motives are poor and weak. Everything around you are full of love, of joy and bliss.
You have been thinking about it for years. Everyday, every minute that you live you find out something that could result in a definitive way.
There is something inside that you can’t control. It’s heavy and black, but I quite like black! So I don’t know if I’m here because I enjoy this moments of death or whether I’m here because I must fight.
However, against what, who or why?
I’m tired of this shit. I tired of all the darkness and love. I’m exhausted of trying to be something that I am not. I must be strong once in life and give up with dignity and courage. My decision was made. No one is guilty unless myself.