does anyone care?

I’ve mentioned this a few times lately, but even in my “realistic, tragic, dark, depressing mind…” sunrise is probably my favorite time of day… when the black of starry twilight begins to fade, giving way into the glowing orange and purple hues of the precursors to a new day.

I suppose it’s ironic that i prefer night over day, and feel that sunrise, my favorite time of day, signifies the end of what i like, and the start of what i’d rather avoid.

I just like how it looks. It doesn’t really “mean” anything to me. But it’s a type of natural aesthetic that i value purely for how it appears.

It (my mind) doesn’t have to be so “dark and depressing,” but relatively speaking, that’s how others tend to interpret it, because most people seem accustomed to thinking shiny happy thoughts, and riding that roller coaster of endless disappointments.

@Chiroptera:

You should consider that what those left behind feel, that “vacuum” you mention, is likely similar to how most of us feel on a daily basis, and why we don’t want to continue to feel that way. So, in grieving, in being shocked by a person’s choice to exit, in living with a “giant hole” as such… you are halfway to understanding why someone would choose to exit.

The interesting but dangerous thing, is that the same option is available to anyone else who feels they can’t stand to feel what they feel anymore.

Sometimes, in many varied situations in life, we have to draw the line, put our foot down, and say “enough is enough. I will not accept or submit to further transgression.”

The sad part is that too few people realize they are pushing someone to such a point, until it’s too late… despite all the warning signs, and all the chances missed or ignored, to make a change. And what’s worse, is that some people just don’t care at all, and will do as they please, no matter who it hurts, or how bad, even if it literally ruins that person’s life.