I can’t help myself. I’m just a bad masochist gay person. I want to die… Everything is pain … I have a sick thoughts. I remeber the days when i was trying to chase my brother just to satisfy him sexualy. And he’s calling me names … Devil and so on etc … I wish and hope that this is just a bad dream or a nightmare …
I just want to sleep … For God’s sake …
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Hello, WoodenGrave 🙂
I see you are new. Welcome to the Suicide Project.
Did you know the elephant is the only animal with 4 knees?
Okay, hope you have a wonderful day/night/evening/morning/wherever you are.
See ya’ around.
hi.
sorry you’re here.
no big deal. thanks for the support …
Yes big deal. We will continue the support . . .
It’s not a dream. It is a nightmare. It’s a living real life nightmare. You will soon learn, all of us have our own here. And regarding yours, well, I am very sorry it has to be this way. There is nothing wrong with being gay. And I bet there is hardly anything wrong with you. It seems you have been doing what it takes to survive. The names you are being called do not define you. Remember to try and not see the worth of yourself through anybody elses eyes.
Maybe something will be able to change. The future has a million different courses you can take from here on out. I hope you’ll eventually manage the right one. Until then, let’s continue to make the most of what there is.
thanks for the kind words.
I doubted one of my friends was a masochist server,I said I would not be with her,finally she cut hair,and told me”you are nothing to me”
I doubted one of my friends was a masochist server,I said I would not be with her,finally she cut hair,and told me”you are nothing to me”
That’s brave …
WoodenGrave…..welcome to the Site. We have all experienced, to varying degrees, pretty crappy things that have caused us to end up here. If we all got together I think we could out do American Horror Story…..who wants to put on a show in their uncle’s barn…..you needn’t be named Judy and/or Mickey (showing my age).
Your story sounds truly terrible. So you’re gay…many of us on this site are. No room for buying into the “Names will never hurt me” myth…we ALL know what a lie that is. Words have killed people I love and I simply will not allow that to happen again, if I can help it.
Feel free to vent and give us your feedback on our stories in return. You may just find some healing in that process, and manage to stay alive.
Cheers!
BTW, I was one of last night’s basket cases….it happens to the best of us!
@bayareaguy… yeah … i’m strong person, but those people around me they try to hurt me … and in the end of story,
everyone ends up, all alone.