im a religious girl i believe in God but right about now my life is not so easy my dads away and he was the only person that i felt good with i only see him once a year and i rarely talk to him on the phone my mom… my mom is harsh on me and i understand why but i just can’t take it anymore im sixteen but she treats me like im three i have no social life outside of school and social medias my friends and she’s so mean when ever she has a problem with someone else or something im her hit toy who she can either scream at or hit… she makes me feel like im a devils child she says im not respectful and i don’t consider her my brother is addicted to drugs and alcohol so my mom takes that out on me too she strict on me because she doesn’t want me to be like him and i know that i don’t want to be like him either i want to be a successful heart surgeon with a happy life and happy family some day but right about now im looking at that as impossible i just want to kill myself im tired of so many problems my mom is my main problem but i have other brothers who hate me aunts who are jealous of me and hate on me i have no true friends i just want all this to leave i can’t anymore and besides all of that im a sophomore in a technical school which makes my life much more stressful and i want to die i know that if i take a lot of pills i can overdose and die but i don’t want to go to hell i want to meet God and be next to him i pray to him everyday and supposedly he’s supposed to help me but nothings happening I WANT TO DIE SO I CAN GET AWAY FROM ALL THIS NONSENSE BUT I DONT WANT TO GO TO HELL…
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Take a deep breath… Okay, now exhale… Repeat this process two more times. You’re done? Okay, very good.
I’m not one to dabble in religious affairs but I think you should take a break from all things religion for the time being and focus/repurpose that energy towards yourself. You can still keep the faith along the way, but you need to help yourself in the process. I believe you’ll be fine in the long run, right now it appears you are particularly overwhelmed, but in the face of these odds; one must simply fight back. Mumsy sounds like a true fanatic, I think it’d be wise for you to pay her no mind and I hope your father will return soon. Perhaps you should confide in him and keep him in the loop with the war at home?
It’s your life – You dictate the terms, you control the outcome. No one can take that from you. In the near future, I’m hopeful that you’ll branch off from home and go on your own lil’ adventure. For now, look after yourself, yeah?
Peace.
When you said you were a religious girl with a mom who treats you like your we three you had my attention there because that sounds so much like me. I understand what your going through and I know it really sucks. If you ever need someone to talk to that understands my email is Terrav773@gmail.com
Don’t listen to that last post. Keep asking God for strength. If you kill yourself I do believe you will go to hell and hell is much worse than the situation you are I’m right now. You say you love your dad. Just think of the pain it would cause him for the REST of his life. Don’t be selfish! 2 of my brothers and my mom killed theirselves. It’s bullshit and not fair. Why should I have to deal with it the rest of my life? I’m sure you have people who love you. Don’t do that to them.