Its worse

Lately i have been listening to some songs about suicide and i just cant help it anymore.They seem to call my name.I have been down lately and i honestly don’t know why.No-one is picking on me like usually.It was a everyday thing now its just a every other day thing.But i just feel like i don’t belong.I Fell such sadness.The song i listen to now makes me want to cry.But i love it.It talks about how a girl hangs herself.She pretended to be happy.Her mom and dad come home.Her mom finds her,screams,and faints.Then her little sister comes in.Crying she hugs her dad tight.No-one ever even watched the video.Her school is still depressed her biology partner cuts,The boy who accidentally tripped her is in a suicidal hospital.He feel as if he only smiled it would of helped.But its too late the girl is dead.In the video she says sorry to everyone.This song makes me feel gone.I love it.but it hurts.I lighten to it over and over.Hoping ill follow this song.Hang myself from the fan.No-one will truly notice my disappearance.Only a few people will.