I’m 16 going on 17 and I have been thinking about suicide for about 2 years now. I often think about the people who might get affected by my death. I have tried hanging myself once but my dad called me before I could do it. He asked me what was going on in the house( he lives in a different country so calls once a week to ask about ). This all started because of my mother. She has been pushing me to compete with my sister since day one ( exam wise ) I’m not to say dumb but I’m below average. My mom is a teacher and she expects me to be perfect but I don’t believe studies is all you need in life. You need to live life to know your purpose in life. But she only wants me to think about my studies. My feeling are almost non-existent to her. I try all the time but to her I’m just a failure. I stay up at night thinking what would my life be if I was born under different circumstances. The only thinking keeping me from killing myself is my love for a girl. The only problem is she will never love me. Where I’m from depression among teenagers are not something you think about. All they say is teenagers can’t handle the stress. Well no shit Sherlock not everyone can follow the system. I can’t get help so I have came here. I need help and hopefully I can help you guys too.
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I’m sorry about your situation. If you want to you can email me: panfu_96@hotmail.es I’d be more than happy to talk to you 🙂
Sorry friend, it really sounds like a hard time you are going through. Sometimes it helps to actually talk to parents about this stuff. They don’t tell you to study because they just want to show off your good grades, but they want you to be able to live a decent life when you grow up – and you need a good education for that. But I understand why you don’t like what they are saying; the same is happening to me as well. They just sometimes forget that you have problems as a human being and not only problems with studies and grades.