Contemplating suicide for the longest time, but the more I live, the more I yearn to die. Being human just sucks! If I were young, everyone would be concerned and talk me out of it right? But I am a senior. Now, you are not concerned and don’t give a damn right?
I am currently cleaning house. Purging my belongings. No one notices. No one cares. Good.
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My father would have been 61 next Saturday and he completed suicide Tuesday. We all cared about him very deeply and I’m sure you have those who care about you. Please don’t give up!
You matter. Even if it doesn’t feel like you do. We read your words and you matter to us.
I’m doing the same thing. Cleaning out so my son doesn’t have to. My husband died a year and a hald ago. My only child can’t stand talking to me because he can’t deal with seeing my without his father with me. It’s Easter and no one reached out to me. I’m so alone. I’ve been trying to wait till my son is married on 6/6/14 so I don’t ruin the wedding but I’m just going to be a figure head there. I’ve had no part in planning the wedding or being involved. I want to be with my honey
Unfortunately you will never who actually misses you till you are gone. Being a little older age isn’t very kind to a lot of us. Just my end and why I keep moving is being active in the community. I found some things that I could do that I felt made a difference and I try to do them. I can say for sure I lost my mentally wanting to be in this world years ago. Just not ready to give up the physical yet. From past experience maybe you shouldn’t thin out things you can’t easily replace… I did it once when I was younger and a coma later I just had the joy of starting over added to the headache of people walking around me like I was an egg. The other time was easier since I didn’t have to buy anything. When released I just went back to the same place… At least I still had a TV the second time around instead of a mattress that was waiting on me that was left for me to throw away like the first time… I don’t think anything else was touched except family clearing the house of pills and sharp objects. Just cleared out a relatives house and honestly it was the least of the burden.