Dear SP friends,
I’m sick and tired of being the good girl. I’m sick and tired of pretending to be perfect. Everyone expects from me good grades, nice dicipline, appropriate language and hopeful thoughts..
But that’s not me. I’m losing myself there. Nobody feels how I feel. It’s so hard to go through the teenage years nowadays. Social anxiety overwhelms me.
What should I do finally?
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Hey there,
You can always drop me a line if needed. I know those same feelings, hun, and they suck, no?
My email is: brl.cents@gmail.com
Just be yourself and others will have to just accept you as you are.
I feel you… I have been depressed for quite a while and somehow my teachers unanimously agree that I am perhaps the most optimistic, positive, and high-grade person….. They never get just how suicidal and tired I am.
I’ve been trying to let go and just show my true self…. but these people just force their own impressions on you.
There’s no good advice, but lots of people do feel like you do. Teen years are not easy now, nor were they easy 50 years ago, nor will they be easy 50 years from now. Being a teen usually means you have good health and lots of productive and fun things to do. Adults see this and become jealous of all the youth, and so decide to be insensitive.
Yet really, the social predators and wolves and worms, alongside the hypocrites who want to prescribe how everyone else should conduct their business, come down harder on teenagers than at any other age. This is a special problem because often the wolves have power–to issue grades, to hire, and so on–that forces young folks to deal with them anyway.
I don’t know what the answer is–maybe you can put a thumbtack on their seat when they’re not looking, and smile because they really deserve it. There’s probably no need to live up to someone else’s standards, more than absolutely necessary, if they’re a wolf or a worm or a hypocrite.
Luckily there are people who try to rise above the mess, who can help you. No one here can find them for you, but they are there, somewhere nearby. Suicidal feelings don’t always disappear with age either, only the reasons for wanting to self-harm change. In middle life, marriages and finances. In late life, declining health. Some people are just more susceptible to having these thoughts, perhaps from genes or early life situations.
You’re always welcome to leave news and thoughts here.
You can start trying to be more of an asshole to others. They might not like that so much, but it can be fun sometimes.
Thank you all for your advice, guys!!!