Not sure what to do anymore

Hi all,

This is my first time stumbling upon this site and after reading several posts feel like maybe talking to you guys could help me connect with someone who understands what I’m, well, we’re, all going throug. These past 2 years have been extremely rough for me. I went to Rutgers University after I graduated high school, I’m now 20 so it’s been two years since I left. I didn’t even make it more than 2 months and I didn’t know what was wrong. I was never bullied, nothing ever happened to me, but ever since I started life after high school graduation I’ve felt so lost and just can’t find my way back. It’s been a little more than a year since my first suicide attempt. I didn’t really know what to do, I didn’t know who to turn to and nobody understood. I looked around at all the happy people around me and just couldn’t help but question why I felt so different and just depressed. I never told anyone, my mom would never ever think that someone like me would ever try t do something like that. It’s been two years and I’ve been battling this for quite some time now. I don’t ever know what to do, everything makes me angry and I’m always upset. More than ever now lately have I really been pondering over the fact of ending my life. I just don’t know what to do anymore. Has anyone found ways to cope in order to hold on for a while longer, because right now I just feel like giving up as I did two years ago.

Vinci