From everything that I have read on here most want a painless death. I do too. But I give up. It seems that the only options available are painful and dirty or gruesome. And I want death so much that I am willing to go through the pain. After all it will only be a few minutes. What is that compared to a lifetime of pain?
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There are methods for a painless death. Three I’m exploring more at the moment are carbon monoxide using a CO generator. Hypoxia using the exit bag method with ********. Hypoxia using food grade Nitrous Oxide. With all the methods there are obstacles to overcome, Nitrous Oxide is close to getting crossed off the list.
I long for a peaceful or just endurable death. That has never been an option for me. I am too handicapped to obtain anything and my family refuses to help me die. A gun would be acceptable, not painless but possibly quick. I have no gun. Hanging I’ve tried multiple times and has only caused extreme suffering of strangulation. I have also tried suffocating by just a garbage bag- impossible to withstand. People that think painless methods of suicide are available are kidding themselves. The most painless would be ********, which is near impossible to get, especially if you’re handicapped. I have heard of at least one botched suicide by ******** which caused extreme suffering to a lady who wanted a peace death. Yeah, we are fucked. If it wasn’t for our goddamned nerves and pain receptors covering every square inch of our bodies we could just light ourselves on fire. Jumping from a building seems to be the only possible avenue for suicide for me, if done right it would be quick at least. How cruel and pathetic that society closes off every humane way of dying and leaves us available only violent ways.
I am so sorry for your situation. I wish it improves for you.
There is no such thing as a painless death. Just watch how much even a little grasshopper wiggles its legs on the way out is enough to see that. Medically assisted euthanasia is about as close to minimum suffering as possible, yet it still involves discomfort, anxiety, and fear.
Methods like jumping and car crash carry a risk of killing bystanders by mistake, along with risk of being prosecuted and going to jail if unsuccessful, as I mentioned on your other post.
I still hope you will decide against it. A good sign is that you’re writing something here. A painful life sucks–I agree with that, but the alternatives are usually worse.
Best wishes to you.
I really do wish you well.
As human beings, we have a special burden, because we know about death before it happens. That sucks. I don’t know what to do about it, or what to do about broken relationships, or relationships hoped for that don’t materialize.
But best wishes.