Have you ever heard that saying..”Karma is a *****?” I been hearing that all my 19 years of my life so far and i actually agree with it. It is a fucken ***** -_-. Im not your typical ” Black girl” people call me a “white chocolate person” or ” oreo” because im not rude or disrespectful or all in your face about everything. i was bullied hardcore about myself. i dont like hip hop or rap, i dont braid hair and all that stereotype shit. it might shock you that im a vegetarian. aha yeah i can see why people call me the names they do. i love to skateboard and surf, i love heavy metal and rock music. thats all i listen to. i dress only in black and i love to write poems and songs. I never even had a black friend before. everywhere i went i never fit in with them. i wasnt rude or mean. im loving and nice and respectful. All my life i hated myself because people hated me for who i am. it was considered”weird” to be in company with someone like me. i dont look at my face when i brush my teeth or getting dressed. i always look down when i walk anywhere….i basically was running from the person i couldnt get away from which was me. I dont know what the hell was i thinking when i grabbed a blade and slit my arm and wrist. but i enjoyed it actually to see me bleed to see me suffer. i smiled and i felt relaxed. and my life flashed in my eyes..i hated myself so much that i just wanted to give up. i cryed every night…silently during the day because i was considered a freak because i wasnt the typical black girl. but hey i fucking survived my attempt..i have people who love me for me and accepts who i am…and i found my dream guy who is still helping me heal my wounds and make me strong. I dont give 2 fucks if im a freak or weirdo. i am proud and happy to say that i am proud to be me and i am one of a kind rare person and proud to be. my adivce to anyone going through that phase ” i gotta know what they think of me” give them the finger t(^0^t) and say “fuck off” because all what matters is what you think of yourself. Erase all that negativity and start anew. its possible because im living it 🙂
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I admire you and congratulate for overco
I admire you and congratulate for overcoming this obstacle in life.
You are not weird nor a freak. You sre simply you in the most unique way possible. You decided to not let cultural nor ethnic stereotypes influences define who you are, instead broke away and found your true self.
Stay strong and take care.
One note to everyone: It doesn’t matter what’s the color of your skin, where your from, your religion and creed, how much money you make and your social ranking, we are all equal in the end.