I came across this site a long time ago when I was going through a rough patch, and the url has always remained in the back of my mind. Those dark days were then pushed out by a new precence in my life – would you believe it, a girl. She gave me my strength back, and I became totally dependent on her, she made me happy, despite being unfaithful, unappreciative and generally all round nasty when she’d been drinking. I spent everything I earned in an attempt to make her happy, to the point that i’m now £5500 in debt.
She’s gone now, completely cut out, without so much as a goodbye.
Last month I wrote off my car, 127mph, sideways into a tree. I got up and walked away. I can’t even kill myself properly – since then i’ve been scared of the consequences of failing. Thats whats keeping me going, that, and the feeling of being alone in my final moments.
Don’t know why i’m sharing this.
But thanks.
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Don’t mind money too much, it’s at least not a good point to kill yourself over that kind of “problems” … it’s normal from my point of view, that you focus on a partner too much, if you don’t have anything else valueable in your life. Sadly this behaviour pushes people who are rather emotinally balanced away from you.
You should learn to listen to yourself and find your answers, then you can go on close to normal with your life. Allthough it’s your decision what you want to do.
The red pill can be hard to swallow. I woke up to the fact a long time ago that all women are innately hypergamous. The worst thing you can do is spend all your money on a woman, as when a new man with more money enters the scene, you’re history. A man will tend to stick by his woman if she has problems, trying to help and support her. A woman has a very low tolerance threshold for male problems. It’s all about her.
When I mentioned to a former girlfriend I was upset about being circumcised, she wrinkled up her nose and told me to get over it. If she’d have told me she was upset because she was circumcised, I’d have held her in my arms and listened to her and been sympathetic. That’s the difference between men and women–men are capable of love and women are not.
don’t mind lawrence, he was probably dropped on his head as a baby, what can you do
I’m sorry to hear that, some people have the power to influence almost every aspect of your life first through that intimate connection that feels like the apex of existence. I’m sorry she left you, though your love for her was unique, there are different flavors of love out there that you have yet to experience, some more invigorating than others, some the same, but it’s all unique. It’s very admirable that you were able to remain loyal with her despite her flaws, if she didn’t want to work on them that is her fault and you have no blame at all for it. Perhaps experiencing this “high” could be used as evidence that life is possible to be enjoyed under the right circumstances? Circumstances like that may come around again, debt although is constraining is malleable in that you can work with it. It’s not the end of the world, try not to overthink things. Best of luck 🙂
So being dropped on my head as a baby caused my circumcision?
Fascinating logic.