I am alright and get through my day half decently, then I don’t know what…usually in the evenings I am stirred by a torrential wave of wanting to die and self harm.
Tonight it is connected to the men I wanted to love that didn’t love me. I want to drift into oblivion when I think about how I let them treat me or what I put up with/fell for. I am stupid; I am trash; I am no one.
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Hey there,
You are not trash. Nor are you stupid.
The fact is, is that those are your voices in your head, and they are lying to you. The people that treated you that way didn’t treat you right. They don’t deserve someone like you.
Let me tell you this, there are a lot of good guys out there that really care. Some of them will do anything to see you happy. I myself am a guy, and I have experienced some things like you as well. Women haven’t really treated me right, and I think it’s safe to say that I’m done dating for awhile. Do I ever entertain the fantacy of finding a good woman? Sure, just as you might want to find a good man. But for now, I’m alone, and honestly prefer it that way. For if I ever choose to find someone, it’s more than likely she’ll hurt me.
If you wish to talk, feel free: brl.cents@gmail.com
You’re not stupid or trash, you just want one of the most basic human needs, to be loved by someone, it’s what hurts me too, people put up with a lot just to feel or hope to feel love but to find someone who really does, that the tricky part that, like you’ I’ve yet to discover.
^All true words^ Sad but comforting.