I’m not sure if I relapsed or if I was just never stable in the first place. I have these moments of thinking I’m strong, and that I have ‘duties to fulfill’. I’m on meds and have a therapist. It makes me feel even MORE crazy. More often then not, I just want to give up. And I get called weak while I’m alive so what’s the difference now? Something needs to be final. Why couldn’t it have just happened? Why can’t I stay happy for others? And the answer, I have finally figured out, is that it wasn’t meant to be.
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Sorry you feel this way. I know how much the pain hurts. I think you are meant to be happy just like the rest of us our. Hopefully with meds and therapy we can find that happiness. Just have to keep trying.
Dear struggleon,
Feeling like you are crazy? That is just a small part of life. Just as happiness, sorrow, excitement and depression are too. Sometimes they are just too out of balance.
Yup I hear you, done lost my shit too!
Oh well.
Peace.
Well I wouldn’t say you lost it nor did I mean that, I just sympathize with your situation as I too feel in the same boat minus the meds and expensive doctor. But I truly feel I, myself, lost my head or grasp on “things”.
As you say yourself, you don’t know what you want “right now”, but if you give yourself a little bit more time you will find out what your true passions are. You will know what you want, fight for it and love it.
I see a lot of “i don’t know” in this post, which reminded me of this:
“Mistakes are, after all, the foundations of truth, and if a man does not know what a thing is, it is at least an increase in knowledge if he knows what it is not. ”
? C.G. Jung
Maybe spend some time considering what you Don’t want… or thinking about mistakes you Didn’t make.
Maybe next time someone says “how are you?” you could respond with “how am i not?”
I know this isn’t a final goodbye
And even though at life you sigh
You can make it, just keep your head towards the sky
In the end i’m just a normal guy that doesn’t want you to die
Why? Because I know you can do it, you just gotta give it a try
This isn’t how it ends for you… right?