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If you are unable to live for yourself, please live for your children. You’re death with absolutely devastate them, even if you are not that close with them. The hardest part about suicide isn’t always the death itself, but the questions that loved ones are left with. They will undoubtedly blame themselves for your death, no matter what kind of not you leave behind. Questions will go unanswered, and it will destroy them. Suicide is such a hard thing for everybody. It might seem like the end to you, but it is truly the beginning for everybody else, and it hurts like hell. My teacher committed suicide 3 and a half years ago. She was like another mother to me. She was so gentle and caring and helpful. She took her life just after I had finished up the school year, and although I had just turned 12, I blamed myself for her death, for missing the signs. Questions went unanswered and still do today. I don’t know why she did it. She always seem so happy, and I still feel like a failed her. My dentist took his life a little over a year ago, and again, I feel like I failed him. I missed the signs. Suicide devastates everyone around you. I assume your children are around my age, 16, give or take a little. Trust me, it will hurt them more than you will ever be able to imagine. Please think before you go through with it. Ending your own pain will only hurt many more people. Is that worth it? Do you want to put others through what you’re going through? You’re not a burden right now. You just need to talk to somebody who can help you. Think about it. I wish you the best.