I feel so fucking useless. There is so much suffering and the world is tearing itself apart around me and here i am being a whiny little ***** helping nothing and no-one doing no good for anyone, anyone at all. I am useless.
I have no right to feel sad all the time. I should be fucking appreciative of everything i have because i know there are people out there that would give anything to live the life i do. But i’m too fucking selfish to be appreciative. The world is so unfair, that people like me who deserve nothing can have a good life and stable family etc and people who actually fucking deserve it don’t. And i do fuck all to change this, i’m sitting here whining about how unfair the world is on everyone and not even fucking trying to change it! I hate myself for that, i hate myself so much. At this point i just want to reduce the amount of damage i inflict on this world and i don’t even really know how to do that. I’m selfish, i’m pathetic and i don’t matter not one little bit. What the hell is the point?
I’m just so tried and my brain is so fucking fried that i don’t even know if any of this makes sense for fuck sake. Â Have i at least somewhat got across what i’m trying to say?????