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Something New / Moving away

by Lazarus 6/26/2017

written by Lazarus

So i finally turned 18 and suffered through months of studying, getting a job and then bam, failure. I pass everything but Math on my GED test. I take it AGAIN and fail. This is the last time. Can we talk about how god just hates me or something? I have to do everytning myself without the freedom. And its not even just about that. I have a tutor, im makong progress but it still isnt about that.

Its how my parents took the money i was saving for a car. My first car. The car i’d use to go to work and fucking wednesday night […]

6/26/2017 0 comment

I should just forget I exist then.

by JusTired 11/3/2016

written by JusTired

I should just let him fuck me whenever he wants. Even if I have his words playing in my head over and over. Even though I’m so stressed out that my period actually stopped for two months. I tried to reach out to people. Tried to find a friend in those who were there before but that was a mistake. I go online and type “My boyfriend wants to have sex but I don’t”. Found ONE article in which the answer-er was sympathetic. The rest were all leaning towards compromise. “It’s your obligation as a woman to meet your mans needs.” Go fuck yourself you […]

11/3/2016 3 comments

Why?

by thetoastertart 9/24/2016

written by thetoastertart

I have dealt with depression for so many years now, going on 5+. I’m only 18 years old. I’ve recently come upon the realization that happiness is entirely an illusion. It’s a false experience that comes from a chemical reaction within us, and this same reaction can be recreated with certain recreational drug use. therefore happiness is actually bullshit, and why should I care about continuing on in this life? Every friend I make, I end up pushing away. Every girl I meet, I end up pushing away. I’m so fucked up at this point I don’t even know if I know who I am […]

9/24/2016 6 comments

The Abyss

by RandomAttempt 5/1/2016

written by RandomAttempt

They say that Depression is like this black hole that sucks at your soul, The things you love start to lose there color. Your Dreams cease to lose there luster. So Naturally when you are less then thrilled with existing in this dismal shit hole of an existence that our parents with not so much as a sideways glance thought about, the “Professionals” have a simple answer for this. To Medicate. To dull our minds so that in short, while it doesn’t really fix the Depression, it just makes us give less of a fuck about why we want to throw ourselves headfirst into the […]

5/1/2016 3 comments

First Post

by DarkDestroyer 2/15/2016

written by DarkDestroyer

As the title says, first post here. I’ve never really posted on any forums before so this is very new. I’ve wondered about suicide for a while. I’m nineteen, but I’ve had a lot of shit happen. I had no father and an abusive mother who accused me of trying to kill her and of hiding things, she mind fucked me. I started to believe her I think, maybe that’s why I feel so much hate towards myself now. I feel so much anger inside, I wish I could find her and put a gun to her head and blow her goddamn brains out, but […]

2/15/2016 4 comments

Holidays

by Danny 11/26/2015

written by Danny

I dislike them, I really really really dislike holidays .
Holidays are days when family members come together and become fake as hell; They act like they weren’t talking shit about each other every other day.

11/26/2015 9 comments

Helpless Disaster

by InhalingAnxiety 10/30/2015

written by InhalingAnxiety

This is just going to be a bunch of nonsensical rambling, but I’m just so tired of people. I’m drained, too, thus no proofreading to see if I even made sense.

Sorry for the waste of time.

Two of my friends have been inseparable since I introduced them. They became best friends. One is a lesbian, one is an inactive bisexual (she likes women, but has a child and wants a man to replace his shithead father, thus being inactive in the lady-looking-for-lady party.) I’m going to refer to them as lesbian and bisexual, hope I don’t offend anyone.

10/30/2015 3 comments

Survivor

by katt996 7/21/2015

written by katt996

I’m Kat, I’m 19, I’ve suffered from psychotic depression and severe anxiety for 7 years. I’ve had a really rough upbringing, my father OD’d and disowned me when I was 15, I’ve had hallucinations and delusions since I was 3. Self harmed between ages 13 – 17. Suffered chronic joint pain since I was probably around 9. Have been on several medications. Dropped out of high school at 15. Been homeless. Been mentally and verbally abused by several people. Forced into consenting to sex. SO much. So much about my life fucking sucked.

March 13, 2014.
My boyfriend and I split up, I don’t know why. […]

7/21/2015 3 comments

Endless Suffering

by WalkingZombie 7/18/2015

written by WalkingZombie

My suffering has been never ending for over twelve years. I am 18 years old and about to finish high school. I don’t know if I will reach that finish line, as I am stumbling hard. I won’t go into my whole backstory, but I will mention some of it.

I’ve suffered extreme bullying for my whole school life. When I finally got into high school, I thought it would change…I thought it would be different. How wrong I was.

The bullying started up again very quickly, but none of the teachers ever gave a shit. Recently, that bullying has turned into sexual harassment, and nothing is […]

7/18/2015 8 comments

Why does no one want to spend time with me…

by please just let me die 6/4/2015

written by please just let me die

So, I know I’m a terrible person to people I honestly hate, but as for the people who I try to be nice to and care for… WHY CAN’T YOU SPEND FIVE FUCKING MINUTES WITH ME. I really don’t understand how hard it is just to get off an Xbox, or take a few minutes after you get off work, or a simple moment when you get out of school just to talk to me or hang out with me. I mean…. I actually TRIED with you. Even after I gave up on everyone else, I stuck with YOU. Not him or her, not the […]

6/4/2015 2 comments

I’ve Fucked Up – Again

by Crazyhorse 3/28/2015

written by Crazyhorse

I’ve got a roommate that I love dearly. Keep in mind, I knew that he didn’t want to marry me, he claimed is was just his friend. He’s was not in the best of health, and I’ve done things for him that only medical people would do; enemas, insulin shots, emptied urinals. I’ve even handled his mail and banking when he’s in the hospital. Now, after 15 years, his health is better, and he’s going back to his old self, screwing any female that looks like a stripper.

But this man, whom I love dearly, doesn’t love me. We got into a hell of a fight. I’m […]

3/28/2015 2 comments

I’m Just Done

by Tara 12/19/2014

written by Tara

I can’t deal with being fucking bullied anymore. I’m still being called an idiot, a *****, a sociopath, and an attention seeker in person and online. I’ve gotten more threats, such as being pushed down stairs AGAIN and getting the shit kicked out of me. Meanwhile I don’t talk or interact with these people whatsoever. Seriously I cannot get away from this bullshit no matter what I do. The worst part is I can’t do shit about it because nobody fucking cares anymore. This is why I should just keep all of my emotions bottled up because whenever I share them I end up being […]

12/19/2014 3 comments

So so so fed up of it all…

by Neko 3ucliwood 12/6/2014

written by Neko 3ucliwood

I’m reaching a point as to were I just give up on being my true self, being my true self is fucking up so much shit in my life, its fucking up my family, my relationship with my fiancé, and making any new friends is impossible as all I can do is try to maintain the ones I currently have. Plus with my fiancé its truly fucking everything up, she suffered a big emotional blow a month ago and she doesn’t need my shit, but no, the fact that I must know everything that seems slightly suspicious or posts online because I have this fear […]

12/6/2014 2 comments

I’m just a fucked up girl

by Maddie 10/17/2014

written by Maddie

I’m just a fucked up girl living in a fucked up life in a fucked up world. Welcome to where being me is- *Never Enough*-
Just because her eyes don’t tear doesn’t mean her heart doesn’t cry. And just because she comes off strong doesn’t mean there’s nothing wrong.
You don’t understand me and never will. So don’t start that shit ‘bout knowin’ how I feel.
My life is full of empty promises and broken dreams. I’m hoping things will look up, and right when they do, there’s always something to fuck it up, and we’re back at square one.
Do you know what its […]

10/17/2014 8 comments

Nowhere to Go

by Zander0451 8/24/2014

written by Zander0451

I’ve been suffering pretty severe depression for roughly four and a half years now. Throughout this entire battle I’ve had with the snakes in my head, the demons in my personality, nothing has helped. I’ve been on different types of drugs, I’ve seen councilors, I’ve talked to friends and family in a search for hope and understanding – and I always end up back in this state of desperation. It’s reasonably well known that there are suicidal people who don’t actively want to die, they just want the pain to cease. The thing is, I actually want to die. I’ve had on and off feelings […]

8/24/2014 8 comments

Useless

by Thisismyname 6/15/2014

written by Thisismyname

I feel so fucking useless. There is so much suffering and the world is tearing itself apart around me and here i am being a whiny little ***** helping nothing and no-one doing no good for anyone, anyone at all. I am useless.

I have no right to feel sad all the time. I should be fucking appreciative of everything i have because i know there are people out there that would give anything to live the life i do. But i’m too fucking selfish to be appreciative. The world is so unfair, that people like me who deserve nothing can have a good life and […]

6/15/2014 9 comments

I don’t really want to die, just disappear. (TW) (Vent)

by lemonadexo 5/26/2014

written by lemonadexo

I don’t even know why I’m typing this to be honest, right now I feel reckless and restless and bored and tired.

I’m fed up of being poor and being tired and feeling like I’m being judged for every little thing I say and do.

I’m tired of being ugly. I hate how my face looks, with it’s stupid round jaw and lumpy nose and disgusting frizzy short hair, I hate how I look fat in every photo, I hate how I am fat, acres and acres of disgusting wobbly blotchy skin wobbling away, taking up too much space.

I hate how much I wish I could stop […]

5/26/2014 1 comment

No More Empathy

by kurdt kobian 12/20/2013

written by kurdt kobian

After 3 days I know why I post here. It’s because I can say whatever the fuck I want to people who can sorta understand what I’m going through. I don’t have to interact with people. I just can throw stuff out there and never have to deal with conversation. My three friends (the only people I could actually call friends) know a lot about my MDD but not everything. It’s too much for me to give them details. It hurts them more than it helps me. One of them, Abigail (no last names), suffers from an anxiety/depression disorder. More anxiety than depression though. She […]

12/20/2013 2 comments

a lose/lose situation

by Snake5422000 11/26/2013

written by Snake5422000

Well, I’m not a monk. I am only 34, I can’t live life with no vice at all…. But it’s either that or continue to be impotent. This is a huge blow to my own self image too. I was a heavy pot head for over 20 yrs, this has been the one thing which gave me the strength to not give a fuck, until it made me impotent. So, I can either live like fucking Slim Body Good and live a boring fucking life, like straight edge ++++++, not even hardly able to sit down and enjoy a damn steak or hamburger and potato, […]

11/26/2013 5 comments