Why do those who live in the war of staying strong continue to fight if the battle is never ending? Why must you go through so much pain in order to deserve a shred of happiness? Does it end? Is what they say true, that after so long, the striking pain eases? And why do I and so many others, use physical pain to fight off the mental pain? It only helps temporarily, but still, any help is worth my time. Can we just stop all the sadness and live a life of bliss and peace? Or is that too selfish to ask? Why do you feel alone even when you have an army of friends and strangers standing behind you saying they will always be there? There has to be a way to shut the voices out for even just a moment… so that you can take a deep breath and realize that it will end soon. I’m not sure if what they say is true. They say you are worth it, that you are special, that they care. Do they? Or is that just another way of saying suck it up and keep fighting like the rest of us?
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It does end. I was on this site 2 years ago, contemplating suicide. Today, I am back, but for a completely different reason. I’m here to spread hope and to tell people that it truly does get better. My mind has been clear and my body has been clean for over a year. If you have faith, it can get better.
Hey Haley427, you really are spreading the word of happiness although I’d reduce the optimism a little, sympathy and empathy are good healers but unbridled joy at life may not be so great here, but I applaud what you are doing so keep doing it.
I’m actually emailing 4 people at the moment, but I will. However, I must ask, what makes one want sympathy and empathy over optimism? When I was on this page 2 years ago, coming here made me depressed besides the fact that I could put my thoughts into words and be acknowledged for them. The sadness of everyone overcame me, and it made me feel even more doomed to a life of eternal sadness. I enjoyed the optimism. It was the happiness and the inspiring stories that I heard from others that kept me going, that made me want to continue on with life in hope that it would get better. I’ve been different all of my life, and I’m sure this is no exception, so thank you for the advice, but what makes someone want sympathy and empathy over a positive outlook on life?
I didn’t say optimism is wrong, I agree with you but sympathy/empathy have a part to play as well as optimism, I have always had a problem with what I call ‘happy chappies’ who say how great everything is going to be without fully understanding the problem but following your comments I see that you are doing a good job so again I’ll say keep it up and I’m sorry if I sounded critical of you.
No no. I didn’t mean to come off that way either. I’m just a little bit stressed right now with this and the last couple days of school. Been a lot of very late nights. Thank you for the advice. It’s really appreciated. Everyone has their own preference, and I enjoy seeing things from other people’s perspectives. Thank you again.
When you say that you were here 2 years ago and found it depressing I know what you mean, some of the posts here are so hard to read and are so distressing I sometimes dispair of the human race, what people have to cope with, I got my problems but, anyway I hope you continue to help people but be careful with the e-mails, I prefer the publicness of this site, there’s some strange people out there.
Yeah. I like the public-ness too, because there are some people who just can’t put there thoughts into words and can benefit from “listening” to another’s conversation. However, I feel like I lose people with the number of posts being uploaded on here. It’s sad that we live in a world where we cannot fully trust anyone, but I am careful with what I say and what information I hand out. Thank you again. I wish you the best in everything you do.