Honest question, one I’ve never had the guts to ask, but I feel like it’s safe to ask here. I grew up ugly, emotionally abused and neglected. It’s all I knew, and every bit of good I did ( raising my sister, joining the Coast Guard, being a good friend no matter what it cost me) was in spite of where and what I came from, not because of it. And I’m tried of fighting against everything I was raised in, just to be a good person. It takes all of my effort just to be normal, and sometimes it doesn’t feel like its worth it. I feel like I’m just taking up a space that someone else could fill, and it’s taking all of my effort to just meet average. But if I took my self out of the picture, someone else could take my place. And when they worked as hard as they possibly could, they’d be above average. I feel like I’m just being selfish, taking up this spot in the world. So I wonder if, after the initial greiving, and after I’m replaced,
Would anyone even care?
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After it’s all done, no, no one would care. Why would they? They wouldn’t be able to do anything to change it because no one can bring you back from the dead. Sure, they’ll grieve you and they’ll appreciate your life and accomplishments, but at the end of the day everyone has got to move on with their own lives in order to give themselves the best shot and your life will just be a story.
Whether you’re average at something or not doesn’t really matter, you’re there and that’s what counts – you’re wanted, if you weren’t you wouldn’t be there. If it’s taking you so much effort to be average at something, perhaps you’re taking to wrong approach to it.. or you’re simply suited for something else – so you should try your best to go search for it.
I don’t think people are replaceable on a personal level.. whether one or the other is better doesn’t matter because it’s the person’s individual quirks and memories that you’ll miss the most. If you love them, you love them.. that’s all to it, eh?
People in general don’t care. They don’t care about strangers. Even friends and family don’t care sometimes. Yes, you can easily be replaced with someone better who could’ve done their best and excelled further than you, but they don’t have the job. You do. Qualifications aren’t everything. Your reputation, attitude and your ability to produce quality makes you more valuable than someone who may be “more advanced” but not better. In life, it’s not so easy. If you were to die, your little sister wouldn’t be able to find a replacement for you. You are an individual like a fingerprint and while she may find similar fingerprint, that print will never be yours. You’re irreplaceable to the people that love you and that’s all that matters.