Too free?

Over the past two years, things have been pretty rough.

I’m a fairly successful 40-something, a good job and a reasonable house.  I enjoy some great hobbies and am pretty competent in a competetive sport.

However, I have recently lost both parents due to terminal illness and then, because I was unable to support her emotionally, my wife left me for another man. Somebody I knew.

We had been married for nine months.

She was significantly younger then me and, despite trying for a long time, was childless.  We had been trying for much longer than we’d been married but it just wasn’t happening.

After she left me, I got a fertility test and it came back that I was very likely infertile.

I reported this news to her – we’re still in contact – to ensure that she knew the problem was on ‘my side’ and that I wished her all the best for the future.

Being free meant I could just slip away and that I did.  I went to a city in another country and half of me didn’t intend on coming back.  I have no debts, a disposable income and am healthy.  However, I also have nothing left.

Am I too free?