Is it weird that part of me is afraid of the water? I guess that’s why I don’t go swimming cause I almost drowned 2 times, once when I was little and another time when I had to save my little sister from drowning in the ocean even though she weighed more than me. And another part of me just doesn’t like the water. Ever since I saved my little sister ( 3 years younger than me) from drowning I have not gone in the water really, Ive only gone in when I had to, for example camp when I had to surf and swim in Catalina island. I mean I luv the ocean an it fascinates me but it also scares me. Also I guess drowning is how I want to die so I don’t trust myself In the water because ill want to drown and then that’ll be the end of everything. So part of me is afraid of water because ill want to drown n cause I almost drowned and another part of me just hates water… My family doesn’t know this nor do my friends………….
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Subconscious fear, that has almost become a reflex reaction to you.
It kind of reminds me of a torture technique- water boarding. Water is poured over a cloth covering the face and blocks the nose and mouth and a person has a sensation of drowning- and they die due to the gag reflex kicking in.
I’ve been close to drowning once…my foot caught on some weeds and I was pulled down. Not pleasant, but I wouldn’t mind dying that way, but survival is an instinct we get through evolution and I might end up fighting for my survival.
I’ve never been all that into water, but after almost drowning once, i became a little hydrophobic. Deep water makes me a bit uneasy, but it’s just one of those things… gotta face your fear and conquer it, or it’ll keep making you uncomfortable and limiting your options.