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Sun Rises

by Imaginary Girl 9/28/2018

written by Imaginary Girl

[A suicide note draft from my notebook]

At the time I am writing this, the sun is rising. I’ve always kind of had a soft spot for the sunrise. Especially when you stay up all night to watch it. Waking up just to see the sunrise is nice too, however, I think it’s a lot harder to wake up than stay up.

I have good memories of sunsets, but a part of me likes sunrises more because I don’t have as many memories tied to them.

The night sky is also extremely calming, but it has the ability to fill you up with adrenaline.

At one of my old […]

9/28/2018 6 comments

I know

by Imaginary Girl 6/4/2018

written by Imaginary Girl

I know. I know everyone says suicide isn’t the answer. I know I wouldn’t want my friends to commit suicide. I know this will hurt you. I know this will remind you of Sean. I know this will disappoint all my friends, my teachers, and my family.

And I know this is self centered and entitled; it’s pretentious and trying to sound too deep, but I don’t believe I was meant to have a happy life. I don’t think I was meant to grow old. I was meant to die early on, eventually forgotten.

I don’t believe in fate, and I don’t believe in god. I only […]

6/4/2018 6 comments

Counseling?

by Casino96 5/26/2016

written by Casino96

So my dad told me today that our family is getting family counseling after a huge spat on Tuesday. Good news I guess; my parents will probably change at least a little, and I might be able to get a prescription out of it.

5/26/2016 1 comment

more music.

by Alan Ominous 5/25/2016

written by Alan Ominous

Why do I post music so much. I guess, for the most part, music is such a personal flavor. You really want to summarize someone, scan their playlist. Also, some I find funny, some feels like the message was ripped from my soul, crafted poetically and spoon fed back to me.

5/25/2016 6 comments

Loner

by secret me 5/23/2016

written by secret me

I just finished my college classes and I’m in vacation now.

I called up my old friends but none of them wanted to hangout.. So I’m not going to insist.

I just wanted to have some sort of fun before I start classes again this summer. Which is in like 13 days.

It just sucks that I have no friends to hangout with or share my interest with.

And I constantly ask myself, is there something wrong with me? Because it seems like I just can’t keep friends or make them.

Anyways people aren’t What they used to be.

I remember having so many friends that actually cared about me but […]

5/23/2016 1 comment

Goodbye

by Raven575 5/23/2016

written by Raven575

I don’t even know how I ended up here. I was looking for painless ways to go. I guess since I’m here I will say goodbye to my sister. I know you tried, an I love you. Christina, My love what can I say other than I’m sorry. My kids will never understand this decision, so break it to them gently. The rest who know me, well “middle finger”.

5/23/2016 3 comments

What even

by stellaeric 5/21/2016

written by stellaeric

So about six weeks ago, I took an overdose. Clearly, it didn’t kill me, lol. Since then I’ve been overwhelmed with people trying to help. Counselling, reviews, going through my post.

I had an assessment yesterday. I guess breaking someone down into tiny little pieces is a good way of hammering it home that they’re not really in a good place. Ha. No, I’m sure that man was only trying to do his job, the only way he knows how, and I guess it’s whoever taught him that’s to blame.

He wanted to know if I would like to see the self-harm team. No. I think I […]

5/21/2016 2 comments

Time Flies… But Is Still Ever So Slow

by The Advisor 5/11/2016

written by The Advisor

Wow. I realize I only have a week before ya know, but I can’t stop feeling like I have things to do beforehand. I just don’t know if I can go another 6 years looking for someone who can just listen without flipping out and trying too hard to help. But I feel I’ve done too much damage to good people’s lives to stall. Like, for the love of bacon, why me? I used to be innocent and happy, and now I ain’t worth the dirt under my shoe. I guess not all dreams come true.

5/11/2016 2 comments

I can’t keep doing this…

by Snowy 5/6/2016

written by Snowy

Last night my husband and I fought again over something trivial since I can’t remember what it was. He had to go work with his parents today since I’m not providing anymore. He said I’m forcing him and I should feel bad for him. He’s doing landscaping and I know it’s a hard job and I do feel bed for him. But back to last night, I took my pups out and stayed downstairs for a while. When I came up he got pissed at me saying “you know I can’t sleep alone and I have an important day tomorrow but I guess I should […]

5/6/2016 7 comments

Glad it’s the weekend

by Wintergirl 4/30/2016

written by Wintergirl

I’ve had a long week. My mood has been so up and down all week but I hope it will end on a good point. I’ve been contemplating going back on meds for my depression and anxiety. Mostly for the anxiety. I tried to get help a year ago. Guessing my doctor ignored my depression questionable that the nurse filled out for me at my last physical. They want me to go back to my therapist I guess. I sorta wish I would but I can’t bring myself to do it. The thing is I know I have a balance but am not sure how […]

4/30/2016 5 comments

by NicoleK 4/28/2016

written by NicoleK

Just slept for almost 24 hours. Had a stomach bug at work and couldn’t leave, because we were short-handed. So when I got home at 7am yesterday, I guess my body was like wtf. Now, it’s almost 4am, and I’m awake. And it’s so incredibly lonely. Life is so lonely. I didn’t want to get out of bed and be reminded of that.

4/28/2016 2 comments

Incoming problems

by J Doe 4/21/2016

written by J Doe

Hello. Lately I’ve been feeling ok. My depression comes in waves I guess. I went to bed feeling ok, but woke up feeling like shit. I don’t know why this happens. I’ve got a feeling something bad is coming. I’m going to screw up some how and everyone is going to be mad. Do you know that feeling? It’s that gut feeling that the momentary peace you feel isn’t going to last very long. There’s not really much to say. I’ve got a few more weeks until testing. I realize I’m way behind since my depression kind of came back. I don’t really see myself […]

4/21/2016 3 comments

Welp. I guess im at this point now

by maddie_kay 4/20/2016

written by maddie_kay

So I’ve been taking a shower like, once every 3days. Same with brushing my teeth. Been sleeping either a lot or not at all. I didn’t even realize the shower and brushing my teeth thing until my mom pointed it out. I guess im just not noticing time passing. Never thought I’d get this bad though

Ive been crying almost everyday, begging god to make everything go back to normal. Every once in a while my ex texts me, then i get my hopes up and i think “thank you god, he’s giving me another chance”. Then he just suddenly stops replying, and i realize that […]

4/20/2016 4 comments

I Hate my Mind

by Zetsumei 4/16/2016

written by Zetsumei

*is watching Jacksepticeye and Markiplier streaming videos then somehow finds ex streaming on twitch* Fml… If a big-breasted Asian gamer girl couldn’t snap me out of my depression… I guess there is no hope for salvation and I don’t think she’ll forgive me if I blame my “whininess” on clearly psychotic episodes…

So, besides ending it, does anyone have any ways to beat depression when you’re too apathetic to even eat?

4/16/2016 12 comments

still kicking

by 4beyondhelp 4/15/2016

written by 4beyondhelp

I had a post a couple days ago where I mentioned I was very seriously considering killing myself that day. I don’t think anyone saw it so it probably doesn’t matter, but in case anyone did wonder, I’m still here.

Anyway, my therapist told me she thinks I am self-aware and articulate, and I’m pretty much still reeling from the fact that someone who has any insight into the inner workings of my mind would have anything even remotely complimentary to say. So there’s that, I guess.

4/15/2016 5 comments

What’s keeping you alive?

by NoMoreHopeLeft 4/13/2016

written by NoMoreHopeLeft

I’ve just been wondering about this question, so yeah, as the title already says, what’s keeping you alive?

Family? Friends? Something you don’t wanna miss?

For me, I guess it’s mainly my family, because I couldn’t imagine just leaving them here with all this shit that I created and they have to pay for in the end.
They really don’t deserve it.

The second would be that I’m just too fucking ***** to actually do it. I have to admit, even though life is Hell on Earth already, I’m still afraid of what comes after death. Whether I have to regret it or not.
Besides this little God […]

4/13/2016 12 comments

Back Again

by foreversad 4/11/2016

written by foreversad

I never thought I’d be back.

But look who’s here, again.

I guess this time, it’s different.

And yet, it’s the same as ever.

4/11/2016 2 comments

My story I guess.

by Arneox 4/8/2016

written by Arneox

Hey everyone,

My story might not be important to most,but I’m writing this because I wanted to.I’ve been diagnosed with Bipolar 2 disorder & Social Anxiety disorder for about 5 years now.Been hospitalized 2 times for suicidal ideation ,but as you can tell those weren’t really effective in helping me.Nearing Graduation now,I’m not really excited looking forward my future & such.I actually see my death kinda relatively close now that I think about it.Either it’s the nihilistic apathy that is slowly killing me or the reality check that is the real world.

For me,I’m naturally a cynical,misanthropic,and pessimistic person.That itself does contradict with my personality type which is ISFJ ironically.Ultimately I […]

4/8/2016 1 comment

I wouldn’t call it an epiphany.

by mentally conflicted 4/7/2016

written by mentally conflicted

Honestly, I’m just a stupid teenage girl who still has highschool to get through. I need to put on my big girl pants and just get through it. It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to be sad. It’s okay to be happy.
Suicide. I’ve thought about it, but I’ve always been too much a wimp to really try and end my life. In my opinion, the only scary part of trying to attempt suicide, is if you survive. But then again, that means you are alive for a reason. Maybe I’m scared because I have this hope that everything will be okay.
People say that […]

4/7/2016 5 comments

Saying Goodbye to Friends

by Mr Angry-mosta tha time 4/2/2016

written by Mr Angry-mosta tha time

Is it better that we have the choice to say goodbye, very possibly for the last time?, Or is it better not to have a goodbye?

Really I’m sure it’s the first one. At least than you can accept when someone goes that it’s true, …maybe

I guess it’s hard either way most of the time,
“No sir, I don’t like it”

Thoughts?

4/2/2016 10 comments

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