Feeling more hopeful now that I have a community where I can write anonymously, and where I can help others. I don’t feel as alone anymore. I don’t think I’ll feel like a burden to others here, either.
There are people wanting to pull the trigger just like me, but I feel better now. I feel like I have a purpose now, and reading and relating to others has been surprisingly helpful. A few kind words. Thank you. I’m alive tonight. I started out doing research on the quickest, most painless ways to die, and ironically when I was ready to go, I find y’all. It’s not like, “poof” all my problems and depression are gone, but I am feeling better and am grateful. I hope I can be of some help.
Chloroform was going to be my way to go. I don’t have a gun. Good thing I don’t have a gun. I would miss cute things, like the way my dog poops. He’s just comical sometimes.
It’s the little things in life, but when the little things stop bringing you comfort……there’s this site and good advice and good people. It’s not hopeless. Hanging on a support group over the internet. Plus, it’s given me some purpose. If I can help, I will.
I am going to get some rest before the sun comes up. The tramadol, clonazapem, tylenol, and advil have been hitting me for some time now.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
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Im glad you’ve been deterred from dying :3
I really hope life starts going your way. If anything happens good or bad you can always tell us about it 😀
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Fly-Fight-Win or “per adura de astra” as our RNZAF says. Thank you for taking a chance with the SP community and sharing your story – I apologise for not commenting on your previous post, and so have taken the opportunity here.
Although I was army, I still have mad respect for our airforce brothers and sisters. Had some wicked times with the fellas from our strategic transport squadron and flying in a Herc’ was…well, actually it was shit, but an experience nonetheless.
All the same, I wish you the best and take care in the meantime.
Army?!! Psssshhhh. 😉
Mad love, Shephard.
ECHO.
…and besides, I wouldn’t ever trade that muddy hole in the ground for my own bed.
#GreenTeam
*Per ardua ad astra.
Sir Keith Park would be turning in his grave (and I would’ve spontaneously combusted if I were an airman).
Hey now … don’t be hanging out here too much – watch out it doesn’t add to your depression. On the other hand, like Aeterna said, we are here for you.
Hope you got some good sleep and I’m glad you took your meds – keep giving your pdoc feedback so she can tweak your meds if and where necessary and give you the best possible chance of recovery.
I think your right this is a good site to get help and to not feel so alone in what you maybe dealing with.
Yoohoo, I’m glad you’ve felt supported here and have much appreciated your comments on my post. Some magic seems to occur on sp, that many despairing people are able to find a new lease of life by reaching out to others in pain. I certainly fall into this category, though obviously one doesn’t want to get too dependent on any website.