another day failed

I know it’s really hard but if you can develop some hope you could find yourself in a different place mentally and emotionally. All the self talk you’re using “I’ll never have another partner, I’ll never have a family. I’ll never afford another car” doesn’t really help. Life’s hard enough without beating ourselves up on top of it.

I’m not judging you and I completely get where you’re at. I used to sit in my backyard drinking a beer staring at my fence saying “So this is how it ends.” I couldn’t believe every area of my life wasn’t working. When you’re hit with different areas of your life that aren’t working at the same time it’s overwhelming.

I finally got really angry and became a pretty nasty person. I had nothing to lose so it was like “Fuck everyone. If this is the hand life has dealt me why should I care about anyone else.” You wouldn’t have wanted to be a driver on the same road as me lol and if you got in my personal space when I was in a grocery store I’d let you know it. I’m not saying you should necessarily be angry but anger is better than negativity. Negative self talk works against you. At least when you’re angry you’re fighting back and not accepting your situation.