been a while since i been here. hope everyone is doing ok, or at least staying alive. I hate having suicidal thoughts…but here they are tonight, first time in a while. im quite lonley, and i need a better job, or my gf might leave me. I already only have one friend. crap, im scared of being homeless,in jail, or dead. maybe as a 29 year old black male without a good job (although very educated) i have just seen all the good i will ever see in life? maybe…i should just take the easy way out. i hope this mood passes quickly.
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Jail actually isn’t too bad, but I digress. I remember your name, but not your story, what brought you to SP before?
oh….long story short…bipolar, heatlh problems, lack of oppurtunity to better myself, surrounded by negativity, racism, feeling lonely…the list goes on. Bottom line….i just have lost my optimism on life…and i dont think it will ever return. But thank you for asking about me. Im just another guy trying to succeed despite obstacles.
oh….long story short…bipolar, heatlh problems, lack of oppurtunity to better myself, surrounded by negativity, racism, feeling lonely…the list goes on. Bottom line….i just have lost my optimism on life…and i dont think it will ever return. But thank you for asking about me. Im just another guy trying to succeed despite obstacles.
darn double post
I share your disinterest in this world. And your preaching to the choir with that lacking of opportunity to prove yourself line. Once you do bad, people look at you different the rest of your life.
yes that is true snuffles. at this point in my life, im done caring about what others think of me, unless they are truly trying to help me. since noone really is…i say screw anyone who judges me…they are not worth my time. Im going to try and enjoy the time i have left in this life for the best. Though i get nervous cause if it gets too bad….i might just take my exit of life..and you know…bow out gracefully…
also…i am somewhat glad to have met you. it makes feel close to you that we both understand each other. we have much in common!
That’s the way about it, the screw people that judge part, just to clarify. You said you have a good job though, in that case, why do worry about being homeless?
Just saw that second comment. Yeah, I do feel a connection I don’t feel with many on here, very easy to talk and relate to you.
well snuffles, i do not have a good job. i work part time in a store. I got sick and made a mistake on my jobs…so now im stuck in this neighborhood and living with my parent. If i dont find something full time soon, i just dont know if im going to live to see 35. i would rather exit than be a loser or be homeless (like my father).
I can understand that. I got fired from my last job while I was going through my own shit at the time too. The cherry on a piece of shit. And i’m in the same ‘living with my parent situation’. I’m only going on 18, but it’s still kind of depressing. Well, 35’s six years away, so you have some time.
Was trying to lighten the mood with that last sentence, sorry if it didn’t work.
Nice to see you again and i am sorry that your life is still bad