would it work? I think it might, I just don’t know the side effects. I’m 25 now and have been struggling with my depression anxiety and mania since I was 11. They added borderline personality disorder as a comorbid to my bipolar II when I was 20. I just don’t have it in me anymore to do this. I am a coward, and don’t want it to hurt. I already hurt enough all the time. So I want death to be painless. I just want to go to sleep and not wake up. I just want to sleep forever and ever. And that makes me even sadder than I already am. So if I can just go to sleep and not wake up I wouldn’t hurt anymore, and I wouldn’t be sad anymore. And this would be all over.
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I understand that feeling, as well as wanting to go in a painless way. Though, in this terrible world, even a decent, painless death is hard to get. I researched a lot about lethal plants, and while atropa belladonna is deadly, the symptoms of this and most other lethal plants are not peaceful. From belladonna you would feel nauseous, have a fever, lose balance, even hallucinste and have convulsions.
Í think that if you can get it, doll’s eyes would probably be the best poisonous plant to commit suicide. It acts as a sort of natural anesthetic for the heart as it poisons it, and because it works directly in this way, it’s supposed to be a quick and peaceful method. The berries from doll’s eyes are said to be sweet as well, so even the taste might be nice.
If you are certain that this is what you want and you cannot be helped, help yourself or get better even in a small, gradual way, then I suggest you research the methods that are plausible for you and make your plan in detail and with time. Failed attempts could make everything worse for you in the end.
How could somebody get doll’s eyes??
I would listen to the advice of Ryed
Its hard to find an easy way out > painless etc; I do not know about these plants but I am sure going that way would not be so peaceful. When any kind of poison gets into your body there is going to be pain one way or the other. but if you choose to go that way make sure you take enough of it to die because if you try just a little and live you will be in a bad bad situation. I have come to the conclusion that just about all methods of suicide are painful to some degree. You just have to pick the one you want, the one you have access too and you have to just bear down and take the pain. Take the pain and try to find something that will kill you quick so the pain will be over quick instead of slowly. Also getting drunk before doing some of these methods would lessen the pain and help you to deal with it.
I agree with Uptown. I’m new to the site…first comment…but I’ve tried twice and failed and there is nothing worse than that…and I’m a nurse!! I should know how this is done!! But I failed miserably…and that was such a disaster. So if you have no way out of your situation…make sure you do enough of whatever to end it. Nothing worse than being committed against your will.