Hi everyone I don’t know what I’m gonna get out of this post but I only hope it’s good.
I really want to leave this earth I have a power cord and the staircase from my room that I have ready to hang myself from I have a letter ready aswell.
Im way too sensitive for this planet and I can’t handle all of the hatred everywhere not only aimed at me but at everyone. It’s a hell on earth I live in!
I wish I could block out all of the negativity I’ve tried and tried to no avail the only thing I feel will make me happy is to hang myself.
i really don’t want my partner to find me dead but I don’t know how else to do it I love him so much but I don’t want to carry on being so sad around him all the time it’s not fair.
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It’s not fair to also leave him,
Hi. Any reason you HAVE to do this RIGHT NOW? Can you stick around and talk to us a bit for a day or two?
Nooo stayy i have some wise words too:
“No, the world needs me” – Cleveland Brown, Family Guy.
I’m sorry to hear you’re leaving us.
Good luck finding peace in oblivion.
As for your partner, you really don’t want him to be the person that finds you. This goes beyond the trauma of having a loved one die by suicide (already a traumatic thing, because a lot of people close to the victim blame themselves). In some peoples’ minds, death is somewhat romanticised, and it looks peaceful when you see people at funerals. For your partner, it will not be.
Entering the home to the shock of finding you, a loved one, dangling from a banister, lifeless, pallid, eyes bulging, neck broken and reeking of shit, will be an image that will stay with him for the rest of his life. He might have flashbacks and nightmares and debilitating guilt about not being there when you needed him for years.
If you care about him at all and yet you still cannot bear to stay alive for his sake, I urge you not to let him be the one who finds you that way.
It’s my day off work today and don’t want to go back tomorrow. Everyone is so hurtful I don’t know how they do it so willingly and then laugh about it like it means nothing to me
I know how you feel. When I worked for a previous company, I felt that all the time. I used to feel terrible on Sunday evenings. I know first hand what it’s like to work at a company where nobody respects you and your boss thinks the best way to use your fancy university degree is to have you packing boxes, scanning barcodes and photocopying documents (true story). But really, you don’t have to go into work tomorrow. Take a sick day, or quit your job, even call your boss a ‘c–t’ if you don’t need a reference. I mean, it might seem impractical – even idiotic, but if you’re preparing to give up completely, it wouldn’t hurt to try a few crazy things first. You have that freedom.
I am sorry… So if you decide to do it, try and do it in the middle of nowhere. So he doesnt have to see your remains. Truth is, you will hurt him either way, just alot more if he sees your remains. Dont know how you will hang yourself though out there. I hope you find peace.
I hope I see you in a better place someday. This planet is indeed harsh for a sensitive soul.
Fantazia,
There is no good way to do this. None of this is going to make things easier for your partner.
I’m sorry work is so difficult. Those people should not be allowed this kind of control over your emotions and I am sorry they have had before now.
I’m pretty convinced that your co-workers won’t be in your final thoughts. I could be wrong — often am — but I’m betting no one but you and those you love will occupy your final moments. I hope you can spend some time thinking about yourself and them — screw the co-workers!! — before you make any final moves.
Stick around. I first came here 5 years ago. Perhaps that’s too much time, bit it has kept me debating what my final decision will be.
*but
I wish you farewell dear. I too am a sensitive soul in a thick, ridged shell. May you find peace in the hereafter. Of course, if you’re ever having second thoughts about it, you shouldn’t follow through with it.
I am too sensitive for this world too. But I really don’t have anybody, so my death won’t affect anybody. You have your partner at least. Have you talked to your partner about how you feel?