I only know what day of the week it is because it says it on my iPad. I’ve sat in the same chair all day long for the last couple weeks, only moving to use the bathroom, shower, or sleep. My only forays out into the world consist of the five minutes to the corner store for smokes. No one calls. No one wonders what I’m up to. No one cares if I’m still alive. I come on SP to find people who identify with me, but in truth, I find I don’t identify. I feel like I just post random comments that no one really cares about. Just some dude putting his two cents in. Even here I don’t have conversations with people. I can’t remember when I last had a meaningful conversation. I can’t remember the last time I even had anyone to talk to. I don’t belong anywhere. Useless and meaningless. Except to my chair. I fulfill it’s purpose by sitting in it all day. My chair loves me.
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i truly feel the same way here
sounds like me. except i have to schlep my way through grocery shopping and obsessing about money and the cost of things. no one gives a sheet, truely. my own mkther, the only person in my life, i dont live with didnt even remember that i only have rinnitus in one ear. my problems are so immense i overwhelm everyone with them. i am killing myself with worry. exceot you cant die from that? i never post and keep piblic posts here, i am uncomfortable with the attention and who and what might exploit me, i have been burned so many times, i trust nothing. exceot death, that is certain. no one calls me ever, EVER. no lne knocks on my door. no one looks at me when out, i am invisible. do you not eat? surely you must leave to eat? i dont identify with most of these posts, most of em seem to be a bunch of not too big of a deal bs. try one thing after another. if your only problem is no one calls, you need to make the effort to make friends, you call them. i dont call people cause i dont like anyone i know. theyre all so filled with problems and selfishness. everyone is these days. i think earth is weeding out survivers. i dont want to be one. earth is ugly. i hate brown and blue, and green, ugly ass planet. prolly why ive failed so badly here. i wonder why i even bothered to incarnate here? to witness the abuse, lies, negativity? yeah, i see it, ok? im done.
Sounds a lot like me. Sometimes I feel lonely but then I remember why I prefer to be alone. I don’t really have the personality or energy to maintain a meaningful relationship with anyone. I walked to the convenience store, but no one was inside except for the cashier. I didn’t want to be the only one there so I just turned around and went back, feeling like a social failure. I wonder whether no one likes me or I don’t like people. Probably both. Maybe I’m better off alone, but you can’t get a job if you have zero social skills, as far as I can tell.
All hail the might chair. Mine is black with two arms. It’s a desk chair that someone gave me years ago. I like it. It doesn’t talk to me. I doesn’t give me useless words that tear and shred. It’s serves a simple function and it does it very well. When I leave it, it won’t go anywhere, it won’t talk behind my back, it won’t judge or criticize, it won’t make faces..it just is A CHAIR. Thank you chair for being truthful, for being real. Hope your chair is as great as mine.
And that’s my “Two Cents”. LOL
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I mean, i feel the same way as you do about SP. I love my chair,except its giving me a sore butt
This is me…sitting on my end of the couch day after day alone waiting to die. The other end was my daughter’s, but she’s gone, so I guess I could shake things up and move down. I don’t know if this applies to you or not, but back in the day, I could connect almost in an instant. One night-long chat or phone call, and both of us were in “love” and couldn’t get enough of each other. I was so awesome back then. Now everything is just blah. Including me.