I don’t understand I was so damn elated this morning and the past few days and I really thought my life was going to change for the long run but then out of fucking no where a deep sense of sadness hits me and im literally and figuratively aching at this point. This happens too damn often and its the worst??? Why cant I be constantly happy?? Hell, ill take content?? Fuck Ill go from rainbows and fucking rays of sunshine to a damn psycho contemplating whether to walk into a busy road?? I don’t understand?????
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You’re not alone. I think everyone here has there nightmares once in a while.. But the thing is.. Either you fight them.. Or you let them take over you.. The choice is yours.
Seriously sounds like youre bipolar there, you sound like me 🙁 Write all that down and take it to your doctor, push for a diagnostic interview for bipolar. Refuse any meds until you get a diagnosis.
I agree with The Mad Hatter. Sounds like you are bipolar. The times when you feel energetic and elated is called a manic episode. They have medications that can help ease the symptoms of bipolar such as mood stabilizers.