back again. and again. and again. why won’t it stop?? i wish it would stop coming back. that feeling of worthlessness and hopelessness. the utter lack of happiness. it never leaves, just goes to sleep for awhile. almost 3 years now. but now its back and im scared and alone and i cant get out of this hole. i dont want to be here anymore. please just make it stop. i want out. but i’m trapped in this fucking circle and i cant get away from it. sadness. depression. anger. death. the only things i can count on to never leave
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Me too.
i dont know i cant get it to stop do you know how???
No I thought I was doing a little better but Im in bade shape again. I mentioned some other things in some other posts about bridge and quiting my addictions and stuff.
i just want it all to go away and disappear. i’ve quit smoking and drugs, but i cant quit sadness. how fucked up is that shit
Same here dude, stopped smoking, stopped taking drugs, stopped drinking caffeine, stopped eating fatty and sugary foods – all the things people say might be making me worse. Net result – feeling even more and shitty than before. Sadness reigns supreme.
Same here. Quit all those, too. All that we used were just cover ups for the immense amount of sadness we feel.
3 years! 3 fucking years since i’ve been like this, and i cant get away from it. i thought we were supposed to get better with time not stay the same
How old are you Im 24. I have been on meds since I attempted 8 months ago and Im still not doing very good. Im going to bed now. Another day in the books whatever its worth. See I am one of those people that actually think there is a good chance I will go to hell if I end my life so ya. Anyway I wish you well. We deserve peace.
Going on 13 years since I started feeling depressed dude, over half my life now. things seem to get better then they get worse again, only way I’ve found to break the cycle is copious antipsychotics, sometimes it makes a change to feel nothing at all. Not a good change, but a change nonetheless.
is it worth it?
You mean life, or antipsychotic?
If you would like to email me just if you want to talk to someone you can Im not sure how much I have left planned to live but at least maybe a while, derek208085@yahoo.com
life. antipsychotics. both
Hmm.. Well is life worth it? Its sometimes fun, I guess.. The tedium and misery and stress and anxiety far outweighs the fun, but it can be OK from time to time..
Antipsychotics? Quetiapine makes me sleep so much im awake for a few hours a day but at least that’s less time to be miserable in, and olanzapine makes me stupid and dull and an emotional zombie and put on loads of weight but at least I don’t feel totally depressed, just bored and a bit miserable. And fat. Lamotrigine stops my manic episodes but does nothing for depression or feeling unhappy.
Can’t comment on antidepressants I’m bipolar so they just make me rapid cycle.
I guess its up to you to to decide whether medication is worth it..
I tried taking anti depressants and anti anxiety and they dont help for me I feel even crappier when im on them ive tried about 6 different meds the ones I took almost made me feel physically ill. they seem to help for some people though.
I can relate. Antidepressents make me feel miserable. The side effects are worse than my suicidal thoughts. I have heard of antidepressants doing a lot of good for some but I am unable to withstand their effects.