I feel like I have this disorder. It’s not official now, as it had been removed due to controversy, according to good ol’ always-100%-trustworthy Wikipedia. Still, I just can’t help but wonder why people are so positive if everyone is going to die, and we all live just to be slaves to people that have more money or fame than us. I always think about whether or not I should or if I am going to off myself. I don’t do it, though, because I have the slightest hope that something good will last until the day I die, and I also feel that I should live because I deserve this torture.
If one thing, I’m really good at finding negatives. I also rely on seemingly negative facts to justify my unhappiness, like meaning being subjective and a meaninglessness being objective. If physical theories are true, then are we nothing more than senseless energy particles that merely exist and move randomly, while constricted to certain laws? There is also the theory that the universe is a simulation, but why simulate something so pointless? I want help but don’t need it, and it’s horrible. It’s like people take advantage of my emotions because they don’t know how negative I think. I rarely feel anything, but when I do, it ranges from contentment to downright helplessness.
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I’m right there with you. I can totally relate to that.
People are so positive because they try to enjoy life. We are not slaves to those that are famous simply because society has deemed them successful for hoarding the mass amounts of currency they earn. You are the only one who can decide if uu are a slave or not, an if you are positive or not. You do not deserve any torture. If the mass murderers of the world receive no torture, then i firmly believe you don’t. You deserve something better. It’s called life. I promise. I promise you that if you try your hardest to be optimistic, even if it difficult, or it seems pointless, that ppl who are nonjudgmental and optimistic will come into your life and you WILL see the reason that people are so positive. And your description of matter sounds so depressing because you left some things out…. You forgot to mention that every atom of every element in your body is formed by stars. That means you are made of star dust, the beautiful arrangement of everything after the grandest bodies in the universe have died off, to give rise to actual life. Then, after millions of years of evolution and cellular rearrangements, hundreds of generations, you were born. Do realize how perfectly everything had to happen in an infinitely sized universe to specifically make you exist? Really though, out of the hundreds of thousands of DNA segments, if just one had been different when you were conceived, you would be a TOTALLY different person. Please add me on the kik app at “Streletzky” without the quotes. I want to talk to you about this kind of stuff 🙂
I don’t use kik. You can email me at potts995@gmail.com if you want.