First post here, or in public at all about how I’m really feeling…
I’ve been depressed and suicidal for years. Been on lots of different meds, admitted and discharged a few times with no improvements, and a few failed suicide attempts too. I’m at a point where I’m seriously looking for something effective, but hopefully not leave a gruesome scene – I don’t want family to find my body hanging when getting home from work or for some poor sod having to pick up pieces of me quickly to keep busy commuters happy…
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Its so disheartening when you’ve put so much faith into a system designed to help with mental health, dealt with useless medication, dealt with useless doctors, and its all come to nothing. Even attempts to end it all have failed. I wish that I had something useful to say, but all I’ve got is – I sympathize. I really do 🙁
My faith in the health service just gradually disappeared over time. If I had more courage and got over nausea, fear of falling and things like that, I think at least one attempt would have been successful. Best option will be to overcome the falling phobia.
Yah really can’t put faith into anything human I wouldnt think at most times. When I was serving in the Marines, a Navy Corpsman once told me that he was certain that if treatment wasn’t so profitible, many ailments such as cancer would have already been cured. I think it may be the same with mental healh. If they cure us and we no longer require treatment they lose that routine paycheck. Just the same as cancer, if people were cured, the pharmaceutical companies would lost hundreds of millions if not billions… Money and greed.