lol i just realized how bad i’ve fucked shit up. And how much of an over sensitive prick i am especially with my friends. And that i get sad over the dumbest things that i shouldn’t even be sad about. And that i’m confused about a lot of things.
and i hate that i feel so damn hopeless and i hate my family and i hate the fact that my mum makes me so sad and i hate that i can’t talk to anyone or i don’t have anyone. And i realized how alone i actually am.
And i also hate the fact that i sound like such a whiny little ***** and that i can’t put my thoughts into words and i just fucking hate myself. And now i’m sitting in my room shaking and crying because i’m fucking pathetic.
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If you haven’t already, go to a doctor and get tested for borderline personality disorder.
i don’t know if your being serious or not. but it’s something i’ve considered and should probably look into
also if your judging my personality on what i’ve written it’s probably a good thing to note that i don’t write these “posts” when i’m at a sane/good state of mind
Hi from one whiny little over sensitive prick to another. I fucking screwed things up with my friends so many times I lost count. I don’t know how they put up with me. Well, to be fair, most of them didn’t.
eh after a while it’s sorta gotten to a point where i’ve relooked everything that through me fucking things up with my “friends” i’ve realised what terrible people they are. i’m just avoiding them now hoping that will send them the message that i’m done with them and i’m not putting up with them anymore.
I’m sorry to hear about your friends, i used to be in that mindset around my own friends until i realised “well if they can’t put up with me i’ll move onto other people who can” which to be fair is easier said then done but still. By any means i’m sure you’re a rad person who’ll realise that someday and find people who enjoy being around you.