Have you ever wanted to die, like, it’s all I really have ever wanted. Hell the first time I tried to kill myself I was 8. But no matter what I can’t because of my family, because I’m scared to death of hurting them. Even though they’re the ones who kicked me out because I called them out on stealing hundreds from me, the people who abused me and beat me no matter how much I cried, the people who screamed how useless, lazy and worthless I was in front of Everyone I knew when I was in 4th grade because I got a D. These are the people I don’t want to hurt, but I’m so tired of being in pain. I’m tired of feeling like I don’t matter. I’m homeless because of them. I will never be able to get into cirque because of how bad they would hurt me, I’ll never be someone who is worth the air I breath and It will never be ok for me. It doesn’t get better. I’ve been waiting 19 years. I’m just so scared. I don’t know what to do
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I know what you mean. No, I haven’t been through what you’ve been through, but I understand what you’re saying. If you want someone to talk to, I’m here.
Don’t let them win by offing yourself. Show everyone who put you down and made you feel like shit that you belong and you have a reason in this world. Show them you’re better than they’ll ever be. They’ll be shitting bricks by the time you’re done with them. You gotta be bigger than them, show me you can kick ass, not kiss it. Talk to me if anything. I’m certainly here.