Im just so frustrated and done with everything. Its my first full semester in college. I have learned that I do not belong at this school, people have said so to my face. The only reason im with my current roommate is because she was drugged during the summer term and i helped her. She constantly brings me down saying i have no tits or my face is awful. She treats me like a 2 year old and is extremely rude. She doesn’t take what I want and need intl consideration, she only thinks about herself. I do everything I can for her to be nice to me but she doesn’t care. I have only felt beautiful about 10 times in my life, most of the time i want to hide because I look so awful.
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Sounds like you should of left her drugged. I suppose it is normal to want to feel “beautiful” but at least you made it into college, I also went to college, it was shit, I hated it. Maybe you will turn out better than me. if you have somewhere, where you can not feel completely worthless then that is something. I don’t value looks, of course I don’t value a lot of things but maybe you can take comfort in the fact there is at least one person who long ago abandoned the notion of aesthetics = worth. As for your roommate, it goes without saying that you should dump her like a log, deep within a forest buried 6 feet under. In other words, move.
I’m sorry that the person that you helped out is now stabbing you in the back with the way she’s treating you. Do you think there is a way you can request for a room change? Even if they won’t do it immediately, the end of the semester is coming and maybe they could do it then? Otherwise, maybe you could look into renting a room or something off campus, walking distance, from your college? At least that would make it so you don’t have to deal with disparaging comments from people like her…
The only other thing would be to talk to her, but from what you’re saying, it doesn’t sound like that would help too much in this case…but I don’t know the specifics so I might as well mention it.
Wish you the best of luck…
Wait till you’ve grown up, that insult will backfire. If they are a proper gentleman then a small cup is enough for a gentle hand. If you’ve already evaluated her correctly, don’t let her opinion salt your personality, frame of mind or whatever. Sounds immature and worthless.
Angel eyes? Isn’t that the only thing a person sees when close up together hugging and when you kiss.
Angel personality? Then you will always feel beautifulled.
The best thing about college is it’s much shorter than school and even greatly shorter than mature life, you know, when you’re working with other adults.