i wish everyone could see it that way…my body, my choice. if you were trapped in a hellish world wouldnt you want out?? why do i have to suffer so you dont have to? i hate myself, i hate everything about me. i am sick. i have legitimate diagnosis. why must i have to deal with them for the rest of my life?
yes there are ups and downs, but my downs are so bad and last so long the ups arent worth the pain of the downs. its my body, my choice. i should choose if i want to live or die. my life will never be what it should be.
we shoot animals who are suffering, we shut off life support for those we know who are never coming back. i am never going to be who i was when i was a child. maybe i wasnt even “normal” then. i will always be sick. i will always be in and out of psych wards and i dont want that- for myself or my family.
i dont want to have children because i am scared they will turn out like me..i would never wish what i go through day in and day out on anyone. i dont know. im done venting. sorry.
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So many times I’ve tried to reason with people using your argument. Especially with people who support abortion, I make the point that suicide is simply self-abortion with the consent of the “fetus”. They still don’t get it.
For what it’s worth, your words make total sense to me. But what do I know? I’m just another suicidal freak.
So many times I’ve tried to reason with people using your argument. Especially with people who support abortion, I make the point that suicide is simply self-abortion with the consent of the “fetus”. They still don’t get it.
For what it’s worth, your words make total sense to me. But what do I know? I’m just another suicidal freak.
Personally, I wish there existed clinics you could walk into, and die. Yo, I wanna die. Sure thing.
Gone.
But, as you suggest, the stigma of suicide, and the natural response to keep people alive (you’re depressed? THERAPY!!!) infuriates me, as well. Not everyone wants to live; and, if you want to die, fine. Go. More people need to believe in the right to die. I wasn’t asked to be here, and frankly, I don’t want to be. I wish more people had this mentality. I’ve talked to depressed people (mostly over Twitter) that have told me that their parents/advisors/etc brush depression off as a plea for attention or some such nonsense. Anyway, I just think that if you truly, honestly want out, then fine. The door (SHOULD) be right there.
But it’s not.
I agree with you. I would like to NOT feel hopeless and scared all the time, but I do. I get sick of the “you’re being selfish” mantra I hear. What is selfish, my desire or you’re projecting your own desires onto me? Truth is even if I get out of this spirling debt and bleek outlook I think of Robin Williams. The man had money, a solid carrer, and so many people who did so much for him. It didn’t matter, did it?
You’re f***ing right. I didn’t choose this life, it got chosen for me when my birth parents decided to f*** on prom night. Then, they proceeded to give me up for adoption. Well, that’s great and all, and my life could have turned out differently, but I am who I am in the here and now, and if I don’t want this life. It is my damn choice. We live in a society so obsessed with the freedom to choose, except when it comes to suicide. How dare you want the freedom to choose to live or not?! Isn’t that the most basic human right of all?
And to the person speaking of suicide clinics, they exist, but you better have a damn good reason why you want to die. Deciding that life just isn’t for you isn’t good enough, apparently.
You’re f***ing right. I didn’t choose this life, it got chosen for me when my birth parents decided to f*** on prom night. Then, they proceeded to give me up for adoption. Well, that’s great and all, and my life could have turned out differently, but I am who I am in the here and now, and if I don’t want this life. It is my damn choice. We live in a society so obsessed with the freedom to choose, except when it comes to suicide. How dare you want the freedom to choose to live or not?! Isn’t that the most basic human right of all?
And to the person speaking of suicide clinics, they exist, but you better have a damn good reason why you want to die. Deciding that life just isn’t for you isn’t good enough, apparently.
“why do i have to suffer so you dont have to?” These words just hit me. Apparently to kill yourself is ‘selfish’. But is it not selfish for people to expect you to live in pain, just for them?