My Heart

I’m happy to die…I don’t have one single issue with taking my life…NONE. Going by what has happened to me my life should never have been in the first place so why would death be an issue? People around me thinking they know everything…hahaha. There’s only two certainties for me. One is that I have love for only one partner and he’s gone. Two, death is the only other option. I mean why bother? Dust myself off and all that shit? Nah, that’s for the new ageists and people who don’t know reality. Me? I’m embedded in the reality that my only love is gone and on top of that my life has been one long shitfight and I wanna give up and that’s ok. I should be given a good way to end it…I deserve at least that.