I am not certain what to type here.
A few years ago these tendencies, these thoughts, would feel foreign to me. To put it mildly, life was pretty good. I had a significant other who wanted to marry me, I was a straight A college student, and I had a broad pick of graduate programs to further my degree.
Now?
Enter the cliche story; she left me for a friend, college ended into a dead end midnight job, and graduate school did not work out. After diving in the deep end into jobs just to stay afloat for the past year, I am now left jobless(at 26), and I had to move in with my parents after months of unemployment. Life…does it get any better at some point?
I’m not certain. Thoughts of letting go are starting to swarm, and an unusual peace is settling in. I tried just for minimum wage jobs, and after hundreds of resumes, I am losing faith. I really just don’t know if I can pick up and go like I have in the past.
Look, I want to let go at this point. I have forged ahead like a good soldier, I have done everything expected of me, and maybe there just isn’t a happy ending in the deck. Is anyone there?
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i’m 32 and had similair things happen in my life. i blame myself and my own stupidity. i’m not good at giving advice but i’m sorry i know how awful it feels. i pray i dont wake up in the morning every night. i live with my parents and on top of being a dissapointment and a failure, i’m a huge bother and am trying to decide if i should leave to a homeless shelter soon because i try to help out around here but i might just be in the way. i cant do anything right i’d like to think that could change but am loosing hope. i can tell you that others on this site are really good at giving advice and reading others responses even though they’re complete strangers, makes me feel better and not so worthless. i hope things get better for you and you get some input from someone that helps. i’ve only been on this site for about a month but people here are very supportive and encouraging
Life…can turn around. I mean, I tell myself that very thing when that penetrating internal monologue only allows for tossing and turning at night.
If you can, don’t look at it as stupidity for whatever happened in your own life. Sometimes, decisions are born out our emotional make up. Depression, bipolar, etc.
Look, I’m not doing well myself. Obviously. I try to remind myself of this quote, “It’s never too late to be who you might have been.” Life is trying right now, but I’m sure if you delve in your past, remember a time when you could move mountains.
I may be talking out of my butt right now. I mean, I am in a violent cycle of self hatred. However, you took the time to talk to a stranger on a web site that was reaching out in despair. That should count for something. Cheers and love.
thanks thats very nice. i will try even though i dont remember if there was a time like that, and if so well it didnt last. i’ve had low self esteem since as far back as i can remember but i will still try to think of the positives i had. and you took the time as well so thanks for that
thanks thats very nice. i will try even though i dont remember if there was a time like that, and if so well it didnt last. i’ve had low self esteem since as far back as i can remember but i will still try to think of the positives i had. and you took the time as well so thanks for that
Work is one of the reasons I am in a suicidal state too.. I hate my job and it’s been a while that I’m looking for another one. Don’t give up hope just yet, keep sending resumes, eventually you’ll find something.
Thank you.
Like DeathDreamer said, don’t give up.. It’s a difficult economy and it’s tough to find work… or new work. It’ll take some time but you can do it. There are so many unemployed people out there. The more you keep trying, the better your odds will be.
I’m worried about the gap in my resume. Who in the world is going to hire me? It’s been four months….
Trust me. You’re not the only one with a gap. There are plenty of us. Simply put, for a time there were far more job-seekers than jobs available. Things are slowly getting better and a lot of potential employers understand the state of the economy.
If everything else looks good (good references, knowledge, skills, great interview, etc.), then a four-month gap shouldn’t be a huge obstacle.
My references are okay, and I do have a college degree that lends itself to communication skills. It’s a start. I have been working specific events with a catering service to survive, but it’s not really even part time. I’m also trying to sell most of my belongings for money.
I was unemployed for four years before I got my current job. Four months is nothing to sweat over.
Thanks…sincerely.