So? what now?

So recently I met someone. were officially dating and well its nice. He calms me and keeps me grounded, but i still feel like I’m going to drown, part of me feels as if i have to go, as if even if things get better, my mind and soul has chosen, and that my year is almost up. I haven’t shared with him my plans to go, i doubt i ever will. I hate how everyone thinks that he has managed to fix me already, i seriously don’t see how you can fix me. You cant fix monsters.

anyway, here’s a short story since i haven’t been on for a bit:

She walked towards the shore

Dressed in her white lace dress.

It was all to be beautiful

grandiose,

memorable

It was to be quiet,

serene,

intimate.

It was a splendid day:

spring blossoms flourished, birds chirped, the lake water was crystal clear.

Dew droplets caressed her feet as she strode down the isle of tiny wild flowers towards the lake.

the train of her dressed fa;lowed closely behind her kising=g the soft ground.

Today was the big day, one she had dreamed of for month.

her heart beat rapidly,

her fingers trembled softly,

Today, she left her old life behind

She was to be born anew.

She reached the waters edge at last.

she let the water kiss her feet as she took a deep breathe and walked toward her lover.

Her mind began to question, was this the one?

she became nervous, could she wed this lover?

but she kept walking towards him, letting herself be cradled by his cool hands

she smiled,

alas, this was meant to be

today, the bride in white took one last breathe

the final plunge,

and married death.