That person

Have you ever met that one person you just can’t stop thinking about? Well, i have. And in my case it suck balls. So, let’s start evert ‘good’ story as it always starts, with alchohol.

It was in the summer, in the local park everyone was drinking, everything was  great. I was there with my friends, wich i now got and they are the best. But that dosen’t matter, because this is about a guy that haven’t felt love in many many years. Let me give you some bavkground. Okay, so there was this 14 year old, and that boy met a girl when he started in highschool, they srated talking and became good friends. They started showing up at school one hour before it even opend to sit and chat with eachother and that gave me a reason to wake up every morning. Knowing i would see her before i met anyone else, no one in my family. So this kept on for about six months, everyday for six months. And ofcourse how every love story goes they became together, and was together for eight months then the boy (as stupid as he was) broke up with the girl, for no FUCKING reason. And lost the greatest girl he would ever know till this day.

So, back to the party in the summer, i had been dating this girl since the winter and we broke up right before the summer, because she had nothing between he ears, in other word she was stupid. At the party i sat down and talked with her bestfriend, which i had a really good relationship with. We sat there and chatted for some time, and she decided to go home, so i said id follow her, even if it’s freaking far. So i followed her home, and we sat outside her house and talked for three more hours before i realised i had to go home. And she gave me a goodbye kiss, and that tured into that, we did not have sex, we stood outside and made out. And when i was leaving i asked if i could borrow her jacket (so i had an excuse to go see her the next day).

I drove to her house, rang the doorbell and her mom opend up. Which was my college, ha! She looked at me kind of shocked, like what the hell are you doing her with my daughters jacket. So she grabbed the jacket and closed the door. And i tought to myself, that was kind of rude. I just wanted to talk to the girl and say sorry for the night before. So i texted her, and we texted for some weeks. Just for friendly messures ofcourse. She is the best friend of my ex.

But now i have cought a case of falling in love, really really really deeply in love. Havent felt like that for four years, and love hurts. It is the greatest pain in this world. And it makes me so angry, seeing her with other guys, even her friends. I just want to be with someone i really got feelings for. I am so tierd of false relationships, i want something real. And when i first find something, it’s out of my reach. When you find that one person you just can’t stop thinking about, it’s always the person you can never reach.

I know this is not a suicide reltaed, but it’s something we have all felt, and i just want those persons to know they are not alone. But hopefully their case is not as sucky as mine. When you find someone it hurts thinking about, never give up on them. Maybe one they you will stand beside that person and say  yes.