I’m not sure how to move on

So in my last post, I wrote about Alex… I need to get the Hell over him but… I don’t want to. I imagine us together all the time… It’s driving me insane! I only knew him for six days, and we’ve been out of touch for a month! I miss him, though… It’s my fault we can’t talk… What if he hates me now? What if he forgot about me an met someone else? We met in a hospital, and now he’s gone to a 45 day program… What if the girl he meets actually takes risks for him? I tried to, I really did… Why can’t I get over it? I’ve stopped writing my fake letters to him(I know they can’t be sent but I write them anyway) and I’ve stopped wearing the bracelet he made me… But the dreams wont stop. Every damn night. I’ve only told one person this, and she thinks I’m insane… Am I? Oh god, I hope not… I already met him in a hospital, he asked me out… He was surprised that I said yes… Am I crazy for obsessing about him?!?!