Why is it that every damn time I try to escape all the fuckin memories and flashbacks they come on harder?… Why is it that the more I try to feel the more numb I become?.. These are answers I will NEVER have.. So why does My mind want to constantly fuckin trap me in this twisted fuckin bull shit with no escape?.. None but the one that EVERYONE considers “wrong” .. I have so much anger!!!!!!!!!
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So much Anger that you could just kill really easy like it was nothin?
If it were the person I despise and deserves every ounce of torture before their death then, yes..
yeah that’s how i feel i feel like goin around all the nearby areas & clearing out all the scum i would love to stab a 100 holes into each & every one of those motherfuckers i would be doin everyone a favour as well as myself because if i was able to i’d feel so much better i’d still be in the same shitty situation but i’d at least be able to let the anger out but unfortunately i can’t do that because of the fuckin po po
(yeah fuck da police HAHA :P)
Honestly I can’t say I could kill ppl I know nothing about. There’s only one person I could torture the hell out of and he deserves every fucking thing I could think of because he gets to walk these streets with no fuckin regrets and no guilt while I waste away in the twisted memories he’s given me… But.. Moving on..
also i heard that’s a good movie gonna have to watch it soon
Never knew it was a movie.. I’m not very big into tv I’m more of a music junkie…
i’m big into all 3
I have a list on my facebook with all the tv shows I/i’ve watched on & it’s over 200 different shows in total & the music is over 200 as well
Nah I’m more music.. Music is my get away.. Korn, slipknot, mushroomhead, kill switch, otep, In this moment, suicide silence… Etc
Yeah I Listen to alot of metal as well been listening to the burning red alot recently.
Oh Yeah & Killswitch Are Fuckin Awesome!!!!!
I Rarely listen to slipknot these days though maybe like the odd song now & then but i used to listen to them alll the time years ago though they are still a very solid band though.
i’ve had that shit on loop it’s awesome.
Yea, we’ll I think my times up so take care. Have a good night
Yeah you too
I have the same problem.. I use to be this kind hearted person always did good for others and was there for others. Most of those people betrayed me and it wounded me, it traumatize me… Time passed and now i am sick i have this nasty sickness which i can’t cure.. They did soo much bad and they get to have healthy life while i wither away……… and people say my sickness is in my head and most of my friends walked away from me… pshhhh I have soo much anger sometimes as well it hurts but not i want to hurt them but because it’s unfair…. I hope u feel better soon.
USE ITTTTT!!! use that anger to propel and motivate you forward. fuck yeaaaaaaaaa
Oh I use it trust me I just don’t think it “motivates me forward” more like in a downward spiral of nothing but confusion and tons of questions with no answers..
Really!? i’m not sure of the intricacies of your situation but if i wasn’t so mindfucked the anger would most def fuel me to WIN. why does it provoke a spiral for you??
I suppose because when I’m in that state of mind I can’t decipher what’s real and what isn’t.. It’s like a never ending horror movie replaying everyday 24/7.. I can feel it, hear it, see it.. It takes me back to that one moment in life where I lost myself and all my pride..
I know that feel. When was that moment for you where you lost your pride man and what happened?
Long story.. It was a long time ago but it doesn’t mean you forget something like that.. I was 15 when it started then at 16 I jumped from friends house to friends house until my am called the cops on me and I got taken and put into a group home and then a foster home..