I recently came to the conclusion, maybe I don’t need to end my life I just need a new one. How would this work?
Get separated.
Move.
Use gov. assistance to pay for daycare & actually get a degree and job.
Actually stand on my own for once.
Well, f!ck me apparently. There’s really not such a thing as separation in Nebraska. I would still have to do all the steps for a divorce, which I can’t afford and neither can my husband. I’m stuck in a marriage I don’t want to be in. I have been screwing another guy for 6 months now…..I don’t think I could want any further out. I’ll never be able to move or get a degree and a job now. God please damn the legal process, please! Send a bus to kill me tomorrow, give me colon cancer SOMETHING!!!! God if you don’t want to take me out, take my husband, he’s already lost 30lbs do to his stomach condition c’mon for freakin’ real!!!! For once in my fxcking life give me an easy way out, I’ve already been born to a psychotic teen mom, lived through domestic violence, basically starve daily, and I have physical/mental health problems, don’t make this sh!t any harder. I’m tired, I’m done, f!cking save me already!!!!!!! I seriously want to do more with my life but if I don’t get a chance soon I’m just going to end it, there’s no point in wasting more life than I have to give. This time I’m not going to tell anyone and I ain’t gonna wait on pills, me without a seat belt and that new car are going to meet an object going as fast as the car will go without the governor kicking in or I’m jumping off a bridge. My life has been such a waste already I just want to do something with it, be content with it, share it, feel important fuuuuuuuuuuuccccchhhhhhh
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insomnia is never helpful……and divorce, like marriage is in some ways just a peice of paper……the fact that you want more for yourself IS a blessing…..albeit a frustrating one…..i know….
I think I’m still married to my second wife, and I’ve had three. Why worry about divorce?
A divorce is the ONLY way I can move or even consider getting funding for college. As a military spouse my every decision rides on whether his job allows it or not. Right now the Air Force has put us up shit creek without a paddle. Let me tell you the funding spouses can get towards degrees is absolutely fucking useless, here’s $4,000 toward tuition that’s already paid for because your family lives under the fucking poverty line. Can’t use it for books, supplies, testing etc. There’s a reason why 50% of us motherfucking spouses are unemployed.