Well guys i’ve been through a lot in my life and im only 21.. i just love talking to people and getting to know everyone like i wanted to be treated back when i was younger.. i was always alone and always picked on by so many people… i was made to feel so worthless and so empty. It come to the point where my own parents didnt even want to know me :c For 4 years they still havent seen me.. or talked to me and that hurts, mainly cause my bro and sis follow in my moms footsteps and listen to her… My mother.. can i even call her that anymore? The one person who i thought had to care for me from day 1 has abandoned me.. chose a guy over her own son.
Now i could type so much into this and let everyone know whats going on in my mind but really whats the point in doing that.. all i want to say is that if anyone is feeling low or down.. talk to me x3 i can guarantee that at the end of talking to me you will be happy and smiling xDD i’ve never failed in making people smile, ever. Except myself at times.. but i dont count xDD i smile when i know i make other people smile.. because i know they are in a better place than where they were before… all because of me xD
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Well geez, I could use a smile or 2! Sorry about your family, it really sucks when the people who are supposed to care about you just…. don’t 🙁
yeah i know right.. like omg. I wish there was like a way to my face up on this thing… i just know that would put smiles on peoples faces too tehee x33
I hear you with the ostracization from your family, I’ve been alienated from my father for most of my life, a product of failing to fulfill his expectations of a successful, useful and ‘normal’ daughter. it was my birthday yesterday and he didn’t even bother to call, I wonder if he even remembered lol. anyways, something I was not able to realize as a kid and something I still have trouble distinguishing is that someone else’s treatment of you is a reflection of them and not you. if they aren’t able to accept the inherent value in you, it isn’t your fault, it’s their fault that they are unable to see it and reject it, it shows that they are a narrow minded, selfish person – not you. it doesn’t show that you do not have value, but that they are unable to accept it.
Happy belated Birthday stendarr. I always like reading your posts. Always articulate, usually funny, and tend to show real intelligence. Your father is missing out big time.
I just dont know why my mom dont want talk to me.. or try and atleast contact me. We live 5 minutes away from each other… the thing is she doesnt even know if im alive or not. I sometimes wonder if she even cares about me, heck im 21 and i dont even know whether i’ll see her again… Sometimes i wonder if i should phone her and check if she answers. I guess i have alot of choices and decisions i can do but its implementing them into actions.