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I think we all have a common trend of abuse… physical… sexual.. I don’t want to die it would hurt the one person that really cared but was too afraid to let me know. I think we all have that person… My bf died in 2011 as I was a senior. Woke up and he was dead. I’m ok now just feel alone and sometimes think about how lucky he is to be above the clouds.. free.. one day when it’s my turn to go but not yet. He was raped at 6 years old and only told me 4days before he took his last breath next to me. In April, friend hung herself and wasn’t found for 3days. My bday was spent cradling a mother who’s daughter hung herself on Halloween. I’ve been there and still struggle but is it bad to feel pain? Feel happy on occasion? Don’t lose hope. It’s all we have guys. We have to lift each other up. Ride the wave…..