I thought I had brought a blade with me on my trip out of town, but I can’t find it where I thought I put it. I really, really have the urge to self-harm right now, but that blade is my only inconspicuous method…or at least it was supposed to be. In a house with other occupants, I can’t utilize any of my other methods without attracting attention. You might be thinking that it’s better that I don’t self-harm, and I recognize what a bad habit it is…but it helps stop suicidal ideation. It helps me feel a bit better when I’m at my lowest low. It’s not safe, healthy, etc., I know that already. But right now it’s better than nothing, and all I have is nothing.
I feel like I’m trapped, like I’m suffocating. I don’t want to feel anything anymore.
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In case of emergency use ice, chew it, simulate cutting, throw it (it worked for me recently when I was out of town as well) – my therapist tells me that no one (including me((and you))) deserves to be mutilated like this. just thought those words might help you like they helped me for a minute. Be safe, sanitary and good luck.
also if you dont have really short nails clawing and scratching yourself hard works too.
i think just as u , although i’m very young , but i never do it , i think of my dreams , because nothing’s deserves to live for but me , please don’t hurt urself , it’s just wrong , i wish i can tell u more , i’m muslim , and i know more about self-harm , believe me , i have all the reasons to kill myself, but then i think : what about god , how will i meet him !! how can he forgive me!! i don’t have to live a shitty life and a shitty afterlife so do u !! so why don’t we make our best to live our lifes with what makes our god pleased about us !!! so please don’t !! just don’t !