So if you check my posts, you’ll see that a while back, I talked about going on a trip to Europe with a travel partner.
Well that travel partner was a girl I fell madly in love with and someone who promised me that regardless of whatever life threw at us, that we would go to Europe together.
Well that girl cancelled on me.
Well that girl is pretty much going to go live in New York with another guy.
And don’t give me that bullshit about there being a lot of fish in the sea. Because I don’t want to fucking hear it.
Well world. The sixth word has been spoken. I am closer than I’ve ever been. The seventh is the last.
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She’s a liar and an unfeeling *****. I’m not going to tell you about fish. I hear you.
Now don’t go calling her that. I know you mean well and I appreciate the energy you’ve spent reading my post and then writing that message, but I still love her. Okay? And she’s… a good person, y’know? I just wasn’t good enough…
Did she act responsibly when she told you that you would go to Europe together and then ‘changed her mind?’ Or was she being spontaneously frivolus? When one makes a promise to another, it’s best to think things through.
When we first decided to go, we both did so with our heads on straight. And regardless of all the things we were going through in our daily lives, one thing remained consistent: we would go to Europe for a fairly long time. And the whole idea came from our desires to travel ever since were little, so it wasn’t just a spur the moment thing. It was supposed to be a very important and (presumably) life changing experience for the both of us.
Don’t let this push you over the edge. There is always hope things will get brighter.
No…. There is no hope. There are distractions from the inevitable, but there’s always that darkness awaiting.
There is hope. Always hope. Sadly things take time whether it is her changing her mind, you getting past it, or yeah finding someone new. It’s time that is hard to deal with when you are hurting. Don’t let the darkness get closer. You deserve happiness too. The darkness will make the hurt end but it won’t make you happy. Big difference. hugs.
It’s horrible to be looking forward to something like travelling with another and then having your plans thrown away by that person. I have to say, don’t let it lead you to taking your own life, yes, it’s a set back, but not worth ending your life over. As whispers says, you may not see it now but there is always hope, things can and will improve, although it does take time, please listen to her.
Ah, I wouldn’t take my life over such an isolated incident. Rather, due to a life time of being “not good enough,” this is just one more thing that leads me to believe that the nothingness of death would be a better alternative.
Yes, I suppose it all mounts up, each little bit of misfortune chipping away at our ability to keep going. I’ve felt a gradual wearing down over time, it’s hard to see a way forward now, to maintain hope, but would death really be the answer, I really don’t know but believe we have to be sure that there is no hope.
u don’t have to live for a person !!! live for urself , make ur dreams come true , go to europe , i’m sure u’ll find a better girl , and i willtalk about fish because it’s just the truth , u can’t make someone love u , but u can make others fall in ur love , just make friends , and stop being depressed , i know how u feel , believe me, so u gotta let her go , and live ur life 🙂
I appreciate your positive energy, I really do.
However, things with me are not so straight forward… I’m a very different kind of person (kind of guy, really) and most people seem to either look beyond me or discover that I’m less than what they thought I originally was.
And… I’m fully capable of living for myself, but I’ve done so for so long that I’d like nothing more than to live with someone at my side. Be it a friend or a lover (preferably a lover though, haha).
Nathaniel, it’s obvious that you’re hurting, but you don’t seem particularly angry – am I correct?
If so, I have to commend you for that. I don’t know your exact situation, but a (formerly) close friend backed out on a big commitment to me just days before an important event, and that (along with other offenses later on) eventually ruined our friendship. My anger is completely justified, but I still think the friendship might have been salvageable if I’d have been able to control my anger and handle things differently.
You’re still on good terms with this girl, I take it? Are you in close contact with her still?
I really hope you find a way to hang in there.
Yes, we are still on good terms and on semi-good contact (she’s always busy and lives three hours away). I don’t blame her for backing out, since a wide array of opportunities were granted to her… but still. It’s important for one to be of their word. I, apparently, was not worth that decency.
I hope not too late, but… if you come to Germany, make sure to texte me ^__^ would be cool to meet and show you a little the old world!
*hug*